Monday Sep 22, 2003

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today was just as hard as yesterday to not get loaded.
ive been doing it for so long, its about the only thing i'm really good at anymore.. i dont know why its so hard to stay clean and dry, when i've watched it destroy just about everyone i've ever cared for.
and i dont wanna be like that. i'm at an extremely pivital point in my life, where it would be extremely easy to just sit back and get high and watch life pass me by. but again fuck that shit.. i barely get any sleep, i'm weak, shakey, and fighting depression... i've got so many ideas and people around to back me up. so for them as well as myself.. i must over come... and sg has been really good for me...this is the first time i've brought this subject to light on sg.. and i already feel better.. smileand i think about the people i've loved and l;ost, and i struggle for them..i really love that girl..wont you send her home?
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beckadarling:
gosh youre a cutie. i mean nothing by this, promise.
cerah:
I can understand exactly where you're coming from. I've been fighting a battle with liquor for three years now. I've tried to solve SO many problems with it... but it never works. Thankfully I'm still around and I've had a lot of supportive friends and I'm doing a hell of a lot better now (so long as I stay away from Bacardi). Sounds like you have some pretty good people on your side too. Good luck... it gets easier as time goes on.

.cerah.

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