well here i am at 2:30 am sunday morning drunk off my ass. I just got home form len and gerry's bar in saginaw. it was karaoke night and i sang a nice drunken rendition of 'bohemian rahpsody" by Queen. I am drunk as shit but, my good friend seth drove me home while his lovly wife lisa drove my new car home. It nice to know i have awsome friends 
last night i was in lansing, my dad was feelin real bad and so was i. he was in tears over ma and i was on the verge but did not let loose because i wanted him to know he had a shoulder to cry on. I felt like a major ass leaving to go to lansing to go out with my best friend chris and his wife jill but i needed it. I am running myself ragged with work and school and all the stress of thos plus the stress at home and the stress of being single. people who really know me know that i ama wrecj despite appreances. i like to keep a happy face and be cheery and jovial.
the truth is i am on the verge. i run out to lansing or detroit to escape. I love my dad and it feels like i am ripping a part of me out when i leave to go somethwhere. he was with my ma for like 30+ years and i can't even imagine what he is going through
i feel lost righjt now. i supposedly have direction because i am back in school but honestly i don't want to wrench on cars for a living unless i absoulutly have to
i have kinda a plan with going to northwood and getting my bacholars and having 2 associates and being an ASE mater tech but i still feel empty
i always could talk to my mother much better than i could to my dad and she is gone
i miss here alot and i feel like if i stop moving and doing things i will loose it
i am going to go sleep my drunkenness off now
i had to vent
so if you made it this far thanks for letting me spew fourth my thoughts
last night i was in lansing, my dad was feelin real bad and so was i. he was in tears over ma and i was on the verge but did not let loose because i wanted him to know he had a shoulder to cry on. I felt like a major ass leaving to go to lansing to go out with my best friend chris and his wife jill but i needed it. I am running myself ragged with work and school and all the stress of thos plus the stress at home and the stress of being single. people who really know me know that i ama wrecj despite appreances. i like to keep a happy face and be cheery and jovial.
the truth is i am on the verge. i run out to lansing or detroit to escape. I love my dad and it feels like i am ripping a part of me out when i leave to go somethwhere. he was with my ma for like 30+ years and i can't even imagine what he is going through
i feel lost righjt now. i supposedly have direction because i am back in school but honestly i don't want to wrench on cars for a living unless i absoulutly have to
i have kinda a plan with going to northwood and getting my bacholars and having 2 associates and being an ASE mater tech but i still feel empty
i always could talk to my mother much better than i could to my dad and she is gone
i miss here alot and i feel like if i stop moving and doing things i will loose it
i am going to go sleep my drunkenness off now
i had to vent
so if you made it this far thanks for letting me spew fourth my thoughts