Do you ever just think , why the hell do I bother ? . It really gets me down that someone I thought I had a really special relationship with barely just over a month ago seems to find it so hard to even acknowledge my exsistence these days . I have excepted that things won't be what they used to and I am looking to the future now ..new relationships and such.. I just thought i'd still have a friend in her . It feels increasingly like being phased out completly 
Its probably my fault somehow , it usually is.
Well anyway meanwhile back at the ranch , had a busy day yesterday . I woke up with the bright idea of having a stroll around camden , but the place was absolutely teeming with people ..every single inch of space had about 7 billion people crammed into it . So I got pissed off with that , went to leicester square and it was much the same deal there . So I gave in and went and sat in burger king until it was time for the meet .
Moseyed on down to the ship and sat with the birthday girl and some other folks and then swarms and swarms of people showed up . Was a good night and I got to talk to quite a few people , not as many as i'd liked due to finding such a large group of people slightly intimidating
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I still get the occasional thought of "these are really lovely , decent people ..they won't like me.. im me" . Blame the majority of the people I went to school with for having those kind of thoughts.
So we come to today and the end of my tales of adventure and intrigue for another day . Today was spent by myself , sitting about playing playstation , watching 24 , eating noodles and generally swanning about like I own the place.
Im kind of refreshed now but I still don't welcome the prospect of another working week . Im meeting my good buddy claire for dinner after work though so thats something to look forward too.
But for now im off *waves*
[Todays Playlist - R.E.M / At My Most Beautiful , Lotus , Find The River]
Its probably my fault somehow , it usually is.
Well anyway meanwhile back at the ranch , had a busy day yesterday . I woke up with the bright idea of having a stroll around camden , but the place was absolutely teeming with people ..every single inch of space had about 7 billion people crammed into it . So I got pissed off with that , went to leicester square and it was much the same deal there . So I gave in and went and sat in burger king until it was time for the meet .
Moseyed on down to the ship and sat with the birthday girl and some other folks and then swarms and swarms of people showed up . Was a good night and I got to talk to quite a few people , not as many as i'd liked due to finding such a large group of people slightly intimidating
.
I still get the occasional thought of "these are really lovely , decent people ..they won't like me.. im me" . Blame the majority of the people I went to school with for having those kind of thoughts.
So we come to today and the end of my tales of adventure and intrigue for another day . Today was spent by myself , sitting about playing playstation , watching 24 , eating noodles and generally swanning about like I own the place.
Im kind of refreshed now but I still don't welcome the prospect of another working week
. Im meeting my good buddy claire for dinner after work though so thats something to look forward too.
But for now im off *waves*
[Todays Playlist - R.E.M / At My Most Beautiful , Lotus , Find The River]
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razorpsych:
i like you man. you were really quiet but i have intuition about people. see you next time.
mechapearlbass:
It was great to meet you at Kate's birthday hopefully I shall meet you again at the next meet up