triodeguy

Ok so its been awhile since I updated this thing. So here goes...

Found out a few weeks ago that my brother is getting deployed to either Iraq or Kuwait. Apparently the army's not going to let him know until just before deployment. As I right this, my family only has another 2 weeks to spend with David before he's deployed.

I think up until now I've been trying to not to think about it, but regardless of how hard I try, thoughts of his leaving and impending danger are starting to creep in. I've definately noticed an increase in my "panic" syptoms (shortness of breath, difficulty sleeping, etc..) I've had to increase my dose of Klonopin just to be able to make it thru the day.

I feel really guilty about feeling this way. I can't begin to imagine what my brother's going through. I mean he has two wonderful kids that he has to leave behind for a year and a half. What right do I have to feel shitty. But still I do. I worry about him so much. If he were to die over there I don't think I could go on.

Well on a lighter note I got my first tattoo yesterday. It's based on an M.C. Escher design that I saw on the net. Originally I was thinking about getting his impossible staircase tattooed on my upper back but changed my mind when I saw some of his other work dealing with simple inverted patterns. If anyone's actually reading this and is interested I'll post a pic of it. It's not quite done yet, I still have to go back for some detail work and shading but the outline so far looks pretty cool.