trinityy

i have no emotions i have shut them off. i try and find them but they don't seem to want to be found.

i got home from boston at about 2:30ish and i went driving around in my car i didn't want to come home i just wanted to stay aay form my house as far as possible. now i am sitting here trying to remember a lot of the weekend. *wonders who has pics*
got to see edea again. i just want to put her in my pocket and bring her home with me. and jeremy is a awesome guy. i think he is one of the VERY few guys that don't wierd me out so much.
anna and i meet up with scarlett when we got into boston. big sweetheart. felt bad she was sick though. she looks familiar. i swear i have seen her around boston a couple years ago at a show. who knows. =/
isobel is a major cutie. big sweetheart.
brie is so tiny and cute!
bailey is fucking amazingly gorgeous very awesome woman.

i am a lil more awake now okay kinda sorta umm not.. but i will try my hardest to pay a lil more attention. i had a great time hanging out with everyone. i didn't introduce myself to everyone but i am sure its okay haha. well i know i wanted to say alot but now i forget so i am gonna go take a walk or something b/c its like 10:45pm and i am doing so much thinking.
i miss anna.. love you sweety
nite loves

don't know what to do with myself right now and my drink i have taste like pure vodka.. hmmm

well i have found my emotions and they hit me hard all at once. tears, pain, unhappiness, feeling alone, oh and the lovely anxiety is a great one to top it all off.

okay this sucks laying in bed and all you smell is the fragrance of her and all i can do is hold the doggy and curl in a ball.. i amtoo down. this town brings me down. makes me unhappy. who wants a roommate!?!??!

i am lost and confused i can feel the pain its so close to me its creeping up behind me so slowly.

off to work woohooo gotta love it..