trinityy

i am scared to be who i am b/c of you. i am scared to live my life to the fullest in fear of rejection b/c you make it sound like i am the fucking devil. i have problems telling ppl how i feel deep down inside b/c you always answered for me. you never let me think for myself. it was not to long ago, about 5 years ago, when i realized i wasn't who you were making me out to be i was someone sodifferent. i was the one you feared. the one you cry about at night. you blame yourself, why not just fucking grow up and realize i am me and i am fucking happy. you brought so much pain in my life no doubt about that. but everyone has suffered some kind of pain in there life. your not the only one so get off your ass wipe the tears and grow up. why not just be happy for me. fuck the pain and push it aside and stop being so selfish. you already lost one son wanna lose a daughter as well? i wouldn't mind walking away from you... i sometimes feel i would be better off without you causing me so many issues with me hiding evey lil thing about me. just b/c i am not what you imagined me to be doesn't give you the right to try and make it that way.

i have to go to work bye loves