trinityy

just got off the phone with my best friend to find out when she was coming up from texas and she has no idea shes gonna drive me crazy. she might be up in a couple weeks or the first week of summer. ugh which means shes gonna be holding me back from leaving home.

so i have been going insan with trying to figure everything out. i need to strat over i need to start a new life for myself. i need to benefit myself. the more i think about it the more i am closer to moving to ny. but where?!?! i am gonna go down to ny in a month or so and look around to see where i could possibly work.
i could sell y car and get about 5000. for it i figure i wouldn't need a car when i get down there or any reason to come back here. unless i come up to see disgorge or my cousins in botson. and when and if i do go down there soon i will be making calls to my brother in ny and my sister in maine to let em know whats going on and fill them in on a lot of thinsg they just don't knwo about me. avtually i am gonna probally call my sister right now and talk to her. i need to have someone who is hopefully aceepting listen and give me some kind of support.

god this is my second time writing iin this right now and i don't remember what i wrote b/c it was just there.

i am not ashamed of who i am and who i love i am ashamed of my family. how close minded they are. i just want happiness and i thought that is what they wanted but its not. mom just wants to be happy with who she wanst me to be with. fuck her.



peace my loves