well i am contemplating on cancelling my account in dec when i am due for another payment... i lack in money and well i am hardly on here that much... in a way i don't want to b/c i have so many friends here and would like to keep in touch... but my attention is elsewhere... so tell me what you think??
in other news, i am having issues with my brain has been working on overdrive with the stress going on... as far as trying to get a job, to reading all this info i am reading on resumes... i found a resume program on microsoft on trent's computer, but now i have to word everything right and get everything the way i want it and it should be... i tend to be a perfectionist as well as my worst critic.
i have been reading the book "wasted", some of you know what its about, for those who don't, its about one girls struggle with a eating disorder... i have been finding a lot of stuff in that book that portrays me. its kinda scary, but i know i have issues with eating that i am trying to fix... some days i am doing well, then others i do so horrible... i refuse to cut myself down, i refuse to pitty myself, and i refuse to talk any kind of pitty from anyone... i am strong and i will get through this... in a way its just like my cutting, except my cutting has been a battle for 7 years now.
my ex gf called me this morning saying she was gonna come up for the day... i called her back telling her not to... for one its expensive to take a train like she planned on doing, even a bus is expensive... second, i had so much shit to do today that i couldn't fuck around... i still have to finish the resume.. i have til monday, then i can drop it off at goldwell and manybe drop one off at soundgarden... i would like to see whats going oon with fedex too.. well application wise...
for the past couple nights i haven't been going to bed til 4am-6am... i honestly don't mind though b/c i am not tired at all. plus i am getting to know this really amazing girl... shes really smart, and doing what she wants... you don't find that much anymore... you find a lot of ppl now a days instead of doing what they want and what makes them happy, stuck doing what they hate being miserable... words can't describe what i see in her... but trust me shes an amazing young woman.
much love
trin
xoxo
in other news, i am having issues with my brain has been working on overdrive with the stress going on... as far as trying to get a job, to reading all this info i am reading on resumes... i found a resume program on microsoft on trent's computer, but now i have to word everything right and get everything the way i want it and it should be... i tend to be a perfectionist as well as my worst critic.
i have been reading the book "wasted", some of you know what its about, for those who don't, its about one girls struggle with a eating disorder... i have been finding a lot of stuff in that book that portrays me. its kinda scary, but i know i have issues with eating that i am trying to fix... some days i am doing well, then others i do so horrible... i refuse to cut myself down, i refuse to pitty myself, and i refuse to talk any kind of pitty from anyone... i am strong and i will get through this... in a way its just like my cutting, except my cutting has been a battle for 7 years now.
my ex gf called me this morning saying she was gonna come up for the day... i called her back telling her not to... for one its expensive to take a train like she planned on doing, even a bus is expensive... second, i had so much shit to do today that i couldn't fuck around... i still have to finish the resume.. i have til monday, then i can drop it off at goldwell and manybe drop one off at soundgarden... i would like to see whats going oon with fedex too.. well application wise...
for the past couple nights i haven't been going to bed til 4am-6am... i honestly don't mind though b/c i am not tired at all. plus i am getting to know this really amazing girl... shes really smart, and doing what she wants... you don't find that much anymore... you find a lot of ppl now a days instead of doing what they want and what makes them happy, stuck doing what they hate being miserable... words can't describe what i see in her... but trust me shes an amazing young woman.
much love
trin
xoxo
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sonny and alcazar were there.
jason is still struggling.. but he's dealing with sonny and carli's baby right now and not so much mob stuff.
in her dreams, carli seemed to go back to sonny. and all is well again.
And send some of that Trent's way.
You're awesome. Keep up the good work. I hope I can see again at events, even if you don't renew, I'm hoping that people will still invite us.