I don't know what's wrong with me sometimes. Actually, I'm pretty fucking clueless all the time. I suddenly feel haunted, like what I got for Christmas was the memory of everything that's fallen apart in my life. There were a billion happy moments, but right now all I'm picking up on is the sadness. In this weird state I find myself inexplicably thinking about and missing someone I don't want to.
Please, take this
And run far away, far as you can see
I am tainted
And happiness and peace of mind
Were never meant for me
All these pieces and promises and left behinds
If only i could see
In my nothing
You meant everything, everything to me
Add to it all the stress and drama, and it hasn't been a very good day. I hope yours has been.
love and murder,
Please, take this
And run far away, far as you can see
I am tainted
And happiness and peace of mind
Were never meant for me
All these pieces and promises and left behinds
If only i could see
In my nothing
You meant everything, everything to me
Add to it all the stress and drama, and it hasn't been a very good day. I hope yours has been.
love and murder,
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ugh. I hate myself!!!
[Edited on Dec 25, 2003 11:01PM]
"You are so emo." as oppsed to "your so emo"
see.
But, I might be taking the term out of context. I know that it means a certain kind of music, etc ... and I think I have pulled from it "that melancholy feeling that we feel for ourselves sometimes,...even though we are not having to live try to survive through sniper fire and bombs and starvation etc."
..I was being snarky, I guess ,but on a totally self recriminating level....
OK-- what I want after a statement like the previous --or any other statement where you know people are a little like "huh?" -- is that "dog with its ears up and its head to one side" kind of look. There is a sound in my mind that is not transcribable in my lexicon, but do you know what I mean...Or am I just really drunk and alone...and can commence being emo on my own about it?