tricks

I had a migraine this morning and had to leave my boyfriend's house without really being nice at all. I hope that he's not mad at me and doesn't feel rejected. I want so badly to feel better and just curl up with him on his couch and watch movies and eat nachos. Homemade nachos at that.

I like Matt a lot. And Matt likes me a lot. And I love waking up next to him and falling asleep next to him and having him touch me in even non-sexual ways. I love everything about us as a couple. The only thing that I don't like is that this morning and last night I had a migraine and had to deal with that shit.

hopefully my 'bad luck streak' is breaking. If anything else goes awfully wrong I think that I'm going to go to a psychic for two reasons:
1) to realise how much I don't believe in that stuff
2) to see if they have anything to say about the 'possibility' of me being cursed.
how insane is it that I'm thinking these things still. Luka and everything about his life and all that shit should just be gone from my life already. I have a boyfriend who treats me better than he did, I have friends who care about me. I don't have anyone who is going out of their way to make me feel like shit. Why can't I NOT think that bad stuff is somehow connected to him?

I need a job.

my cell phone is at Matt's house. I'm worried that he's been trying to get in touch with me but can't and is really worried because that's what I think about often. I'm actually going to go downstairs soon and try to eat because eating a half a burger earlier made me feel a lot better.