Not only am I stuck in Idaho Falls until Friday, but my laptop stopped working. Awesome.
I've had some time to think, and I've come to the realization that certain aspects of my life just aren't fun. I miss that childlike ability to not worry about things or get upset over trivial bullshit. I wish I could have that back. I wish I didn't have to worry about turning in reports and keeping the customer happy and filing expense reports and all that other mind-numbing crap. It seems like it just went away at some point. I want some of it back. Not all of it. I want to be able to have fun, and not be freaking out all the time. I want to not be pissed off all the time. Most of all, I want to not be living in hotels 75% of the time. That would be ideal.
I've had some time to think, and I've come to the realization that certain aspects of my life just aren't fun. I miss that childlike ability to not worry about things or get upset over trivial bullshit. I wish I could have that back. I wish I didn't have to worry about turning in reports and keeping the customer happy and filing expense reports and all that other mind-numbing crap. It seems like it just went away at some point. I want some of it back. Not all of it. I want to be able to have fun, and not be freaking out all the time. I want to not be pissed off all the time. Most of all, I want to not be living in hotels 75% of the time. That would be ideal.
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Then you hang up the phone and feel badly for upsetting things, crawl back into bed to dream of a time when your heart was open wide, and you loved things just because (like the sick, and the dying)