trekka

Scratch that...

Difficult not to feel a little bit disappointed and passed over..

He told me he's not in a place to have a girlfriend. That he thought he was ready for one but is depressed and can't commit the time that is needed for a healthy relationship. He said he'll definitely look me up when he's ready for a girl.

Part of me believes him. He's a good and honest man. I can see that much in him. Maybe he really just isn't ready for me right now. He does have a lot of obstacles right now in his life. A LOT.

But the evil part of my brain tells me I can't believe anything anyone says and he's just saying that so as to not hurt my feelings. Part of me thinks I drove him away somehow like I always do.

Fuck... Why does this hurt so bad?