...... Apparently Ke$ha wrote a song about my life right now in this moment and my friend Elyse shared it with me last night as I cried in her car on the way to our friend's house .......
I miss your soft lips
I miss your white sheets
I miss the scratch of your unshaved face on my cheek
And this is so hard
'cause I didn't see
That you were the love of my life
And it kills me
I see your face and
Strangers on the street
I still say your name when I'm talking in my sleep
And in the limelight
I play it off fine
But I can't handle it when I turn off my night light
Oh Oh Oh Oh
But I can't handle it when I turn off my night light
Oh Oh Oh Oh
They say that true love hurts
Well this could almost kill me
Young love murder
That is what this must be
I would give it all to not be sleeping alone
The life is fading from me
While you watch my heart bleed
Young love murder
That is what this must be
I would give it all to not be sleeping alone
Remember the time
We jumped the fence when
The Stones were playing and we were to broke to get in
You held my hand and
They made me cry while
I swore to God it was the best night of my life
Or when you took me
Across the world we
Promised that this would last forever but now I see
It was my past life
A beautiful time
Drunk off of nothing but each other 'til the sun rise
Oh Oh Oh Oh
Drunk off of nothing but each other 'til the sun rise
They say that true love hurts
Well this could almost kill me
Young love murder
That is what this must be
I would give it all to not be sleeping alone
The life is fading from me
While you watch my heart bleed
Young love murder
That is what this must be
I would give it all to not be sleeping alone
It was my past life
A beautiful time
Drunk off of nothing but each other 'til the sun rise
('til the sun rise)
('til the sun rise)
They say that true love hurts
Well this could almost kill me
Young love murder
That is what this must be
I would give it all to not be sleeping alone
The life is fading from me
While you watch my heart bleed
Young love murder
That is what this must be
I would give it all to not be sleeping alone
I'm seriously going to lose all you friends on here cuz you're gonna get sick of me being emo. I know it. I can feel it. I'm sorry. I just feel..... raw. Someone reached into my heart and tore it out and the wound doesn't seem to want to heal. Maybe I need antibiotics because it feels like it gets worse every day. I promise I'm trying to get better.
