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Born Under A Bad Sign

Thaaaaaaat must be it. I was just born under a bad sign. Us motherfuckin pisces feel way too much for my liking. And there's no way to switch it off.

But...

I Hear My Train Comin!

So I think good times are on their way.

Sorry this update sucks. LOL I don't have a whole lot to say except that shit is... well, kinda shitty right now. Not terrible! Don't get me wrong. Things could be soooo much worse. I know this. And I thank my lucky stars that I have as much as I do right now!

But dammit!

I miss the days that I felt like a million bucks. I miss being swept away in someone's arms. I miss looking deep into loving eyes. I miss the feeling of fingers tracing the tattoos on my skin. I miss the soft sound of someone dreaming next to me at night and I miss waking up to the sound of a heartbeat. I miss the flirty whisper in my ear.

I miss... not being lonely.

I'm trying to not be out there in the world, just focussed on finding a significant other. Because I know there are more important things that I need to be focussed on! Like, I dunno... ME! lol But, goddammit if I don't miss having someone.

And for some reason, tonight feels particularly lonely. I can't explain it. I just feel it hard tonight I guess.

I know things will get better. And being alone will be easier as time passes. I just have to be strong. I honestly know all that! But that doesn't really make me feel any better in this moment. But something in the wind is telling me that good times are coming. I just need to hold on.

So I'm holding on. For dear life, I'm holding on.

Sorry that this was kinda/completely emo. Just needed to get some thoughts out.

I do love you all though and I'll have a more cheery blog up to replace this soon, I am sure of it! xo