People talking shit, they can kiss the back of my hand!
This song represents -exactly- the way I feel about some select people right now (i.e. haters) But I need to let it go in one ear and right out the other, so to speak.
Let's get right to it then, shall we?
It is stupid of me to leave a community that has meant the world to me for the last almost 2 years because of a couple shitty individuals. CK_ and I really had to face some obstacles on here over the last month or so and I -really- truly let it get to me. I was ready to say goodbye to hundreds of you important people just because a couple little girls were jealous that they didn't get what they wanted and I did.
I feel so dumb for letting 2 significantly UNimportant people effect me so strongly. I mean, i feel like a dumb ass. Hardcore.
Because here's what it comes down to: Drama is everywhere. Everywhere. But it's how we handle it that makes the difference in the experience you have with said drama.
And I handled it poorly. Instead of being ME and staying true to who I am and just brush off the bull shit, I let it shut me down. Literally.
That is not me.
What is me? Well, the best part about that is that all of you incredible people who have been here for me through thick and thin need no explanation from me. You know me better than most of my blood family know me. And that's what I love about you all, from the very bottom of my heart.
Before I move on from this topic, I want to thank ALL of you who left me amazing comments and tweeted me and emailed me and texted me with your love and support and your strength. You made me realize how lucky I am to have you around. You all know who you are.
I also want to thank my incredible boyfriend CK_ for being my rock and helping me realize what is really important. I love you baby. More than you know, 
UPDATES:
There has been a lot going on this last week. Lots of work, hang outs with Thanatogenous at happy hour at Elephant Bar, lots of love between me and my man, and some scary stuff with friends being hospitalized. But, i am still standing strong. And I am beyond ready to go on with my life, here and otherwise.
Picture dump?
ok!
What's inside my Fendi sunglass case? Surely it must be my $400 pair of sunglasses!
Ooooor weed.
toke time
pretty
animals
random "narcissistic" me
Alright, enough of that.
So, where do i stand with SG? .... That's a great question. Part of me is a little disappointed in the direction that I've been seeing things go on here lately. It seems you have to be a part of some elite "in-crowd" that, to be honest, I don't feel like faking being interested in said "in-crowd". Does everyone seem pretty fucking amazing? Yeah, for the most part! For sure! But, I don't fit in. I have never fit in with any type of popular group, whether it be the cheerleaders or the stoners or the nerds or even the cool tattooed girls. I don't know why...
The thing is, I can only be me. Some people have the talent of being a chameleon and being able to adapt to the crowd that they are rolling wit in order to fit in. I do not have that talent. I am completely incapable of being anyone but me. And well I roll, I roll hard. And I think a lot of people don't like that about me or are threatened by that or.... whatever! lol The point I'm trying to make is that I don't know if I will ever fit in the mold that is required of me to get noticed by staff and more members in order to obtain a pink status.
I think what I've decided is to go ahead and give it one more shot. I will try to shoot one more set here after Hell City and if I still don't get noticed, then it is what it is! I will be able to say I gave it my best effort and it still wasn't good enough, but that doesn't take away from who I am as a human being. Like I said, I'm pretty used to not being a part of, it's generally how I roll. And that's ok!
If I don't make it pink ever, I don't think I'll leave SG. All of you are so important to me and have been such a huge part of my mental stability. I can't just say goodbye to that! I love you!
One thing I am changing is my infamous blog endings. If you've read my blogs before, you know what I'm referring to when I say "The End".
The reason I'm stopping is that I've begun to notice other people copying me with it and once I start a trend, I generally want nothing to do with it. It's like when a really cool indy band that you loved finally sells out and next thing you know, teeny boppers are singing your favorite song. It looses it's intrigue. So, I'll leave it to the followers to continue on my End legacy. I'll have to think of something new. 
Maybe something that'll get me better blog comments than "Hey, nice ass at the end!" from random people who clearly don't even READ what I have to say. Simple minds... 
Sooooooooooooooooooooooo
I'm back! And I love you! And I'm ready to let the drama "go in one ear and right out the other"!
XOXOX
ME
This song represents -exactly- the way I feel about some select people right now (i.e. haters) But I need to let it go in one ear and right out the other, so to speak.
Let's get right to it then, shall we?
It is stupid of me to leave a community that has meant the world to me for the last almost 2 years because of a couple shitty individuals. CK_ and I really had to face some obstacles on here over the last month or so and I -really- truly let it get to me. I was ready to say goodbye to hundreds of you important people just because a couple little girls were jealous that they didn't get what they wanted and I did.
I feel so dumb for letting 2 significantly UNimportant people effect me so strongly. I mean, i feel like a dumb ass. Hardcore.
Because here's what it comes down to: Drama is everywhere. Everywhere. But it's how we handle it that makes the difference in the experience you have with said drama.
And I handled it poorly. Instead of being ME and staying true to who I am and just brush off the bull shit, I let it shut me down. Literally.
That is not me.
What is me? Well, the best part about that is that all of you incredible people who have been here for me through thick and thin need no explanation from me. You know me better than most of my blood family know me. And that's what I love about you all, from the very bottom of my heart.
Before I move on from this topic, I want to thank ALL of you who left me amazing comments and tweeted me and emailed me and texted me with your love and support and your strength. You made me realize how lucky I am to have you around. You all know who you are.
I also want to thank my incredible boyfriend CK_ for being my rock and helping me realize what is really important. I love you baby. More than you know,
UPDATES:
There has been a lot going on this last week. Lots of work, hang outs with Thanatogenous at happy hour at Elephant Bar, lots of love between me and my man, and some scary stuff with friends being hospitalized. But, i am still standing strong. And I am beyond ready to go on with my life, here and otherwise.
Picture dump?
ok!
What's inside my Fendi sunglass case? Surely it must be my $400 pair of sunglasses!
Ooooor weed.
toke time
pretty
animals
random "narcissistic" me
Alright, enough of that.
So, where do i stand with SG? .... That's a great question. Part of me is a little disappointed in the direction that I've been seeing things go on here lately. It seems you have to be a part of some elite "in-crowd" that, to be honest, I don't feel like faking being interested in said "in-crowd". Does everyone seem pretty fucking amazing? Yeah, for the most part! For sure! But, I don't fit in. I have never fit in with any type of popular group, whether it be the cheerleaders or the stoners or the nerds or even the cool tattooed girls. I don't know why...
The thing is, I can only be me. Some people have the talent of being a chameleon and being able to adapt to the crowd that they are rolling wit in order to fit in. I do not have that talent. I am completely incapable of being anyone but me. And well I roll, I roll hard. And I think a lot of people don't like that about me or are threatened by that or.... whatever! lol The point I'm trying to make is that I don't know if I will ever fit in the mold that is required of me to get noticed by staff and more members in order to obtain a pink status.
I think what I've decided is to go ahead and give it one more shot. I will try to shoot one more set here after Hell City and if I still don't get noticed, then it is what it is! I will be able to say I gave it my best effort and it still wasn't good enough, but that doesn't take away from who I am as a human being. Like I said, I'm pretty used to not being a part of, it's generally how I roll.
And that's ok!
If I don't make it pink ever, I don't think I'll leave SG. All of you are so important to me and have been such a huge part of my mental stability. I can't just say goodbye to that! I love you!
One thing I am changing is my infamous blog endings. If you've read my blogs before, you know what I'm referring to when I say "The End".
The reason I'm stopping is that I've begun to notice other people copying me with it and once I start a trend, I generally want nothing to do with it. It's like when a really cool indy band that you loved finally sells out and next thing you know, teeny boppers are singing your favorite song. It looses it's intrigue. So, I'll leave it to the followers to continue on my End legacy. I'll have to think of something new. Maybe something that'll get me better blog comments than "Hey, nice ass at the end!" from random people who clearly don't even READ what I have to say. Simple minds...
Sooooooooooooooooooooooo
I'm back! And I love you! And I'm ready to let the drama "go in one ear and right out the other"!
XOXOX
ME
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toxic:
I'm so excited to meet you holey freakin moley!!!!!! Adventures <3!
kas:
squeeeeeeeeeeee!