trega

They're beautiful and they don't even have to try. All the Pink girls.

Pretty apparent to me I'll never make it as an SG. Been trying for years -- no one will photograph me, and I can't blame them. Hell, I can barely stand to see MYSELF naked, why would I put anyone else through that? It makes me so fucking frustrated that I try so damn hard to love and improve my body, and I feel like it only gets worse by the day. I feel like I lie to myself every time I stare into the mirror and say "You're beautiful, in your own way. You may not be society's beautiful, but you're Kat beautiful."

You know what? Fuck that. I don't want to be Kat beautiful anymore. I want to be a knock-out. The girl that guys wolf-whistle at. The girl with the unreal figure that makes hearts race and boners occur. The girl that other girls wish they were. I'm so tired of looking at all the absolutely stunning ladies on this site and knowing I'll never be as beautiful, as perfect, as adored as they are. I hate this body I'm trapped in -- fat and out of shape, awkward and ugly. I hate it. I'm sick of it.

Whatever.