trees2112

Well, fuck it.
Fuck everything, man!

In the past week and a half, I've gotten in deep shit at my job (a little of which is my fault, but most of it isn't), majorly pissed off at my dad, and a number of other little things have just added up to total fucking stress. Somewhere, some sort of god must have started a snowball, packed it for ages, and decided it would head straight for my ass. I just totally broke down on Saturday night, and now I'm feeling numb to a bunch of things. Christmas itself was actually quite nice. It was just everything on either side of it that got me.

And the tsunami... I have two friends in Malaysia who are like a brother and sister to me. They recently married each other. We hung out all the time in college, and they were the ones who brought me to Columbus. Coming out here was the best decision I ever made. In college, I was very active with the foreign students and I can't help but think someone I knew (or know) could easily be gone. Now I feel some degree of guilt for not really staying in touch, but I suppose that happens as individuals branch out into their lives. I've never even been physically near that part of the world, yet it hits home quite strongly. For anyone whose life is more directly affected by this, my thoughts and prayers are with you.

Ack. Too much stress... too many people I realize I've taken for granted in many parts of the world, even some locally. Sometimes you want to do it all. But you just can't.