treachery

yeah.. the death card is pretty interesting.. and for the most part.. death doesnt sound horrible for the people who die. I mean, i dont believe in hell.. and even if i did, none of the people i love would be deserving of it. So all in all, death sounds pretty peacefull to me.. Its jsut that im selfish that way. I dont like people to die for my own personal reasons. I want them in my life. Hey, at least i can admit it. My nana just died a week an a half ago.. and I was really close to her. We did a lot of stuff togetehr and we talked all the time. It was just hard to see her go.. cuz she made a big impression on my life. She was a really independant, intellegent and cool lady. She was also dying of cancer. While i aknowledge the fact that shes better off not in pain.. i still cant help being selfish and being upset about the fact that shes not here for me. Its kidna pathetic in soem ways.. but yeah.
I cant imagine havign a brother die. Ive always been lucky that my close family has been healthy and safe..
That must have been really hard
Anyway.. this is a really morbid conversation for an internet nakkie site.. ha. We should be talking less about death and more about boobs, right? ha xox

Shall we meet up on Friday evening before the show? Tell me where you'll be and when...I'll track your ass down.