I'm trying to force out words that aren't even there.
How can I say anything to you when I'm so afraid?
You're the most complicated question I've had to answer, but it's probably why I like you.
Also, on a completely different note. Why the fuck is it that only ONE PERSON (anyone on SG excluded) has even asked how the fuck I am? Or why I'm not DJing anymore? Or why that I won't be coming up to London?
Not even the guy I DJ with, my supposed "best friend" has even said more than "can I keep the CD's?".
As I've said already today, it just seems really quiet. And I guess it hurts more than I let on some times.
I had such a great weekend, with such awesome people.. but I genuinely can't believe that people who I've called my life over the last 2 or 3 years, who I would have done anything for, can literally cut me out so quickly.
How can I say anything to you when I'm so afraid?
You're the most complicated question I've had to answer, but it's probably why I like you.
Also, on a completely different note. Why the fuck is it that only ONE PERSON (anyone on SG excluded) has even asked how the fuck I am? Or why I'm not DJing anymore? Or why that I won't be coming up to London?
Not even the guy I DJ with, my supposed "best friend" has even said more than "can I keep the CD's?".
As I've said already today, it just seems really quiet. And I guess it hurts more than I let on some times.
I had such a great weekend, with such awesome people.. but I genuinely can't believe that people who I've called my life over the last 2 or 3 years, who I would have done anything for, can literally cut me out so quickly.
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you are exactly right about them. they are like that and you may think you are but you aren't. the problem is you (used to?) think that was who you had to be and the way you had to act when people like me, tracey and mark knew that wasn't what you were really like. they are so all emotionless that i think in the past its caused you to be this way and is probably some of the cause of things that have happened.
just be you. thats who we love and thats the guy i became friends with.
not having members only blogs is a school boy error. maybe she was looking at disco/bows page/blog and saw you? who knows.
You're a Vince Vaughn film too?!?! Watch Anchorman AGAIN last night, and now I'm trying to think of my fave Vince Vaughn film... this may take some time! What's yours???