traumatized

Words of the Okie:

I just can't catch a break lately. Sorry to bitch so much, I really am not like that. I think that's just the nice thing about being able to write online. Facelessly you can complain about all the things driving you up the wall without worrying about alienating people.

So, rant of the moment. Finally talked to my boyfriend today after three days of silence. Still haven't heard from my family and I'm pretty much giving up hope on that one. It's depressing when the people who say they love you can't even take the time to return a damn phonecall, especially the one I've had to make. Next week I'm having minor surgery, a small lump removed. It's not a big deal, but I'm still really upset- I don't know why. I guess its that my body is out of my control, I've been dealing with these problems since the summer. I just want to be well for once. And for once I would like someone to be there for me without something being wrong or me having to beg for their affection.

Again, sorry for the ranting. Just needed to say it.