There is something about listening to a jukebox in a bar that is better than music anywhere else...Yeah!
That was a good part about the weekend...As well as a certain football game that came out very favorably....
The strange side of the past few days is that I saw and hung out with a former love interest...We actually have always only been friends, not heavy etc... We partied like we used to do in college...she dropped that she was about to leave her man of 2 years...? Life should not be so confusing...
I cannot deal with such thoughts right now...
I cannot seem to make it out to the mountains although I sense them beckoning during this very optimal time of year...I wanna see the roadrunners go ... the hawks fly ... the waters flow...
Okay ... I am not really a hippie but a belated wannabe hippie? I like the wilds...
Looks like if there is gonna be any body mod it will have to be a tat...cuz I wore a necklace over halloween and it made me rashy...ugh...I am now jewelry free...I am old fashioned anyways ... beaming silver and such only looks good on the ladies.
I have a new friend who is very interesting!
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My father is FB Irish and my mother is an OK Cherokee Indian descendant so I suppose I want to get a tat with the physical rep of these two cultural worlds .... upper right arm - a blue panther or sacred fire and a Celtic emblem of some sort together....BUT I don't like needles...I have an interesting body (tanned with Irish hair as decor) as it is...we'll see...I would definitely need someone to hold my hand caressingly if I went to the tat parlor...haha
I am not a dirty guy (well I suppose I can be dirty if she really wants haha....)
sometimes sweaty cuz i run and then ride my bike to work nearly everyday...
Rambling on is one of my fortes as well....
Sounds like ur experience with the l word is fairly natural...altho to be taken for granted and realize it while in love is probably one of the worst feelings in the world....not something that can be undone...
Great convo Avei...
I feel compelled to love but I am sort of in a nebulous zone in my adult life at the moment...meaning that I am at a point where I am still wanting but am so busy with finishing this stage of pro life that I find it hard to work at finding keeping working for that tru gurl...ugh..geezus this sounds so sad...
that is not really how I am...? I guess this means that I am bachelor but look ahead to having that bond ... in bed...haha....
OK now I have gone too far in this torrid commenting....
My experiences with the L word is natural. Unfortuantly even. Its amazing how much I didnt care when I was a teenager. I had no values. I was raised by a mother who only had time to make sure I had a roof over my head and food to eat while struggling with my older sister's rebellion and a step father (now ex step fater) who had a perscription drug abuse problem which lead into all other kinds of abuse. Physical, mental, emotional.
My sister got pregnant at 16, married at 17.. second kid 2 years later and now has four kids who are all 2 years apart...My older brother is a gay fashion designer/interior decorator for rich people in NY. And me... I am just me. No kids, not married, no drug problems. Just now realizing how much I didnt care or know then.. and wanting to suck it all up now and absorb it while I can. While I have the desire and ability of not being tied down.
For you not having time for a relationship.. I can completely understand. And it isent sad either
but yea.. see i cant even be a bachelorette and be intimate sexually with others.. I just dont work that way. Guys dont seem to have a problem with doing that... haha.. but I just cant and wont. So good luck with your bonds in bed, Pawhaha...
Your pretty young.. were you ever married? It sounds from your journals.. you party alot. I usually went to places on Mill Ave in Tempe when I did go out, but it wasent often. The Library was fun ( bar). A bunch of friends of mine would promote themselves at The Lucky Dragon... those were fun times.