If I ever wanted something well
I forgot it long ago
buried in the here and now
Watching it all burn down in flames
It's so easy to ignore
Every yesterday
Until they come creeping
round again
Like ghosts in the night
Phantoms in plain sight
I can't outrun that pain
And I'm tired of trying
Spent a lifetime denying
everything I knew
Maybe I'm not who I was
but I'll always be who I was
What's the use in denying
So damn tired of trying
to out run the past
In the end it matters what you do
except it doesn't matter what you do
There's no escape from what you are.
If you're still who you are.
~SJS 2/28/22