toxicvixen

Ouch!

To answer your questions:

Yes on GothicAuctions.
Yes on UnEarthed (it's owned and operated by my fiance and I)
and HI! How ya doin'?!

to me that sounds like great sex!!

I think it's just the combination of somebody else deems you worthy as a mate and a challenge factor of "They are taken and I cannot have them...or can I?"

I understand the sex thing too... Sarah and myself are in a long distance relationship currently, so when we are together its like bunnies in the spring time. As long as you have other aspects of the relationship, which it sounds like you do, you'll be fine.

that is so true.... everyone seems to want you when you're hooked up. maybe that's why cheating happens so often. oh well. i'm single now and not looking. at least for now.

that would freak me out... the guys who were in your apartment. eeeek! but i've never been the same since some guy broke into one of my old apts while we were home and pulled a gun on us. anyway, maybe you can at least put a chain lock or any type of inside lock on your door for more privacy/security. i know i am extremely paranoid, so i have a couple on my door.

i totally hear you about lack of female friends/bridal party. wanna be a bridesmaid for me next june? lol.

i'd be flattered. when i first got onto the women's wrestling website i'm currently on, i was asked by wrestlingvixxxens.com to pose nekkid for them. it was all i talked about for days, lol. are you going to do it?

Thank you! Glad you like the poem. I am originally from NJ not to far from where you are. My family still lives in NJ. I was just there this weekend.

maybe he realizes now the mistakes he made with you, and is trying to change? you do sound like you need some relaxation time. i get stressed very easily, so i know how it feels. take a break, do something you enjoy, something to get your mind off things.

i broke up with my ex less than a month ago- after over 3 years being together. we lived together for over 2 years, we were close- so it's hard to let go. it's just that we need to start having separate lives, and not depend on each other so much.

people mistake me for being under 18 almost constantly- so that doesn't help my problem of not being taken seriously. bleh. in our 20's, we're supposed to adults now... i suppose at any age, there will always be someone older and "wiser" who will look down on you for some reason or another.

i was just talking about this with someone the other day actually. i think that you never really get completely over your exes. like there's always this connection that you have with them. you feel like part of them is always yours. and when they start seeing someone new, even if you are madly in love with someone else, there's always a little bit of a twinge of jealousy. and you always think to yourself, well i had them first. that person was yours once and it's hard to see them with someone else.

No I didn't win any money it was my April Fools Joke

Well, I may only be 18, so maybe i don't understand the itching in the back of the adult mind to settle down and start a family. All i know is that I have so much work ahead of me to get to wear i want to be in music recording, let alone time to make money to pay for it...and then there is the manditory time needed to party and live like the rockstar i'll never be. I can't picture wanting to settle down so young, it would put all those on hold. I don't think i could handle the regret i would feel on my death bed if i hadn't accomplished my dreams in music, even if my band goes no where and i only end up with shit money off my recordings, i still had the time of my life... kids can come at anytime... life, dreams and love happen in the now and may never come again so you better catch it, hold on tight and be carefull not to let go too soon.

i hope you get some much needed sleep soon! i was wondering where you were.

sitting here, i just noticed that your 3 favorite SG's are all posing the same way in their photos. hehe.

i so wish i could get away for a little while. not to run away from my problems, but to see something new. i don't drive and i work all the time, so i rarely even leave this damn town. it gets irritating how every day is so repetitive. i keep changing my hair, my decor, everything else i can possibly change just to have something different and not so repetitive and familiar.

Your site is cool...I wish I knew how to do that. I defintely know what youre saying. I dont like being alone...but when certain people come near me I definitely want to be left alone. I also would love to get the hell out of Jersey for a while. See what else is out there, meet some new people etc etc. If only I won the lottery...heh heh. But anyway, what you say definitely makes sense.
*koz*

Slinte! Happy St. Patrick's Day my friend from jersey.

i can understand how much trouble living with an ex can bring. just try to not get involved in each other's lives (ok, that's hard to avoid).

yeah, and i've been overstressed these days. i've been trying too hard to not let it get to me, but it builds up and the stress is overwhelming in the end.

i'd like to be your friend in Minnesota.

may i??

i really don't have any friends either. at this age, old friends get married and have kids and lose touch, the others are in college miles away or done with college and busy with their new lives, and anyone left i don't have much in common with, or they spend all their time partying and since i'm not into that scene, i'm left out. or they got tired of my anxiety issues and gave up trying to spend time with me.

so it's just me, a few acquaintences, my ex-BF, and my online/mail friends.

i so want to move. all the cool people live so far away.