toxicvixen

so a slight update to my earlier entry...

my "friend with benefits" situation has gotten a little tricky. turns out my assumptions were right. this guy is way into than just more as a f--k buddy. he actually is interested in a "relationship," if i'm interested in one. i really like this guy and we get along great. i'd just hate to lose such an awesome friendship if the relationship were to go sour. plus considering the fact that i only broke up with my ex-boyfriend of 3 years a month ago... it's a bit to early to be jumping into anything heavy. i explained this all to him and he appeared to be cool, somehow though i get the feeling that he hopes one day i'll change my mind. i guess there is no such thing as sex without emotions as far as situations like this goes...

and of all weird things i saw my crush (who so confusingly told me that we should be friends even though he thinks i'm "amazing") tonight at the diner while hanging out with brian (guy number 1). he didn't bother to say anything, but instead just sat with his friends one table away and gave me strange looks. after sitting there for about 5 minutes, he got up, walked right past my table and proceeded to his truck where he stayed the entire time i was at the diner. he was still there sitting in his truck after i left. what the hell is up with that? i'm wondering if i made him that uncomfortable that he just uped and left. i really hope he just had a private phone call or something. still, it made me feel horrible. so much for being "friends"

::sigh:: my life is so dramatic.

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