toxicvixen

interesting past couple of days. met the kid from australia and actually thought he was pretty cool. speaking of australia... i've been dying to go there since high school. that is my dream destination, i wish i had money for a cool vacation like that. though, i wouldn't go now since our seasons are opposite and it is currently winter there. i'm already suffering from new jersey cold weather, don't need to go halfway around the world for more.

FINALLY went to brian's house. ironically it is a place we've passed by a zillion times when hanging out. i have to admitt, i was a bit hurt to learn this... i mean, we've been hanging out for awhile now and in all the times we passed this place he never once bothered to say "oh, yeah, girl that i love, this is where i live." i know he has issues with it because it's a condo as opposed to an actual house, but still i don't get it. first of all, it's a perfectly nice place; secondly, it's me... why he would feel he would have to be self-conscious about anything with me is silly. i hate to think anyone would be that way around me. that boy is self-conscious about the silliest things and sometimes i just want to shake him because he shouldn't be. especially around me because i love every last thing about him.

so anyway, i also met his mom (who although i didn't really get to talk to much, seemed pretty cool) and his sister. i think she (his sister) is about my age if i'm not mistaken. it was kinda odd, but i felt this overwhelming feeling of sadness for her. i don't know. for some reason she just strikes me as someone who needs friends or something. of course i could be totally wrong and jumping to false conclusions, but usually i pick up on these things pretty accurately. the whole "brother-sister" bond between her and brian was weird... mainly because there didn't seem to be one. brian said something about them being opposites, but i think of my own brother who is not only younger than me (19) but totally the opposite of me (total slang-speaking, i don't give a fuck "homeboy") and we used to hang out all the time... and still do whenever i get my ass up to north jersey. he tells me everything, and i tell him everything. so i guess it was just a bit shocking for me too see the lack of interaction between brian and his sister. i personally think she should hang out with us one day... but i think if i suggested that brian would look at me like i was out of my mind. oh well.

so yeah, obviously i'm still in that "sigh, he's so great" stage. annoying much? probably, but i don't really care. he makes me happy. luckily my super cool friends aren't sick of hearing about him yet. in fact they are quite amused that i'm so smitten. i'm usually not the mushy, talk-about-my-boyfriend-constantly type of chick. i fall harder and deeper in love with him everytime we hang out.

so... i'm not even sure if this whole journal entry is making much sense or is even remotely interesting. my head is a little cloudy at the moment. i'm all pumped full of various medications. i feel like a freaking pharmacy. maybe i'll make more sense later... but i wouldn't count on it.


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