toxicriot

i want to explain about raedar. i feel she deserves it. she was a pit bull shepherd mix, about 9 months old, with smoke brindle and a black face. she got adopted out 3 times, and brought back shortly after each, everytime it not being her fault. this last time, i was sure she was meant to be in my care, but before i could take her home, evil retarded kim opted to put her to sleep. she needed a reason, and hating how this dog had no training and had puppy energy was no excuse so she had written on the paperwork that raedar was agressive towards people and other dogs.

such shit.

so instead of rae going to the dump with all the other unloved bodies, i took her frozen form out the my parents house where she could have 2 acres of rest.

it rained that day. not alot, just enough to be grey and perfect outside. and after she was put in the ground, and i had put a layer of dirt over her, an unearthly unexlpainable rain weaved it's way through the trees surrounding us.

even my dad noticed.

i think, i hope, i just know... she was saying thank you. she was letting my know that she was ok now. things were better know that someone,someone, had cared.

she stole my heart. the first time i saw her, she amazed me. by far the most beautiful and unique face i had ever met and the sweetest and most eager to please personality i will ever run across.

she deserved the whole world on a silver platter.

i miss her everyday. and i'm so bitter about it, and yet, i know that she could not ask for more, she had let me know that. Rest now my sweetest Raedar. Rest well knowing you have my heart.

i can't wait to see her again.