toxickiss

I have this strange habit of liking boys that have some sort of issue. (Ex: a girlfriend, drug problem, unemployed etc)...I dont know what the hell is wrong with me. This time its a gf, and I dont want to even bother getting involved in that crap. But hes just so damn cool. :GRR:

I think Im going to become a nun, or maybe a hermit.
Im going to become asexual..ahh yes thats it.

Funny thing is, I dont even want sex. For once I would just like to have someone that is really cool to be around that I can cuddle with and laugh with and all that other good poop. Someone that gives me butterflies, yea....thats what I mean...that damn fuzzy feeling inside when no matter what the hell you do you cant stop thinking about that person..and hopefully they feel the same about you. Im a damn hopeless romantic. :sigh: I feel like I am the only person in the world like me and whoever is in charge of the soul mate department forgot mine. Yea Im young and all that stuff but it would still be freakin nice. And this boy seems like someone I would REALLY have fun with, and he kind of reminds me of someone so maybe thats why I like him I dont know. Or maybe I just like him bc I know I cant have him, hence the previous journal entry. And Im thinking maybe I shouldnt talk to him so that I dont start liking him more and making a big mess for myself. I know for a FACT that Im keeping my mouth shut and not saying a damn word to him or anyone he knows so that he doesnt find out about it. Why does shit always have to be so damn difficult?