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My dirty birdies...I've been doing much self reflecting lately...

"Imperfection is beauty, Madness is genius, and it is better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring."

...One of my favorite quotes said by the legend Marilyn Monroe herself.

This quote always spoke to me. Growing up I was picked on sometimes for being the "weird kid." Referred to as a spaz, talked way too much, and sometimes annoying. I always thought of myself as energetic, social butterfly, and annoying (I'm aware of how annoying I can be, but trust me it's the right amount.) I always like to refer to myself as uniquely strange, it's the perfect synonym to weird. As I became older I started loving the quirky, odd, and ridiculousness that makes me who I am.

I am a happy person and I want to bring that good energy and surround you all with it! I know who I am, and I'm confident with that person. Many people think I am fearless, a real "go getter." But the secret is I fear many things. We all do. I'm not afraid to admit that I feel that way though.

I'm a passionate person about many things. I'm an "all in" kind of person. Whatever it is I will put all I am into it. Dreaming big...The challenge...the drive... it's incredible. But overcoming the fear and pursuing what I am truly passionate about... that my friends is what is truly intoxicating.

Every day I remind myself...

Don't be afraid of who you are

Don't be afraid of how you feel

Even if it doesn't end up the way you want at least you were true to yourself.

Remain passionate about the life you live.

Conquering the world. Slowly but Surely.

Traveling is my number one passion in life. This world is so incredible and I want to see every part of it. I have always been fascinated by different cultures. How we all are from the same planet but are all so different but similar.

I could totally break this down for hours. I could tell you about how intriguing I find ancient religion and architecture. How so many cultures were similar despite being nowhere near each other. How it was all changed by exploration and immigration. What shaped each place and what makes it unique.

Okay I'm stopping myself now or else this blog will be so long...

It's really all about the history though...I seriously have a boner for history.

Traveling makes me think differently. It makes my mind wander and I become curious. I want to learn everything about the places I go.

It takes alot to keep my attention.Traveling has never once been boring to me. That's why it's my number one passion.

Places I dream of going most

Egypt

Greece

Israel

Thailand

Peru

New Zealand

Japan

...Okay lets be honest...Everywhere Except Antarctica because it's too cold.

I dream of these places like it's deja vu ... I must have journeyed to them in a past life.

Besides traveling I have another main interest.

Singing, I love singing more than words could ever express. When I was a kid I use to sing on the playground very loudly. This isn't a joke... I would sing music from movies, musicals, bands I would hear on the radio, and even songs I wrote. I would love to jot down words to songs in my awesome journal (which was lisa frank might I add).

My 2 best friends and I even formed a girl band at one point... We were 11. We would pretend to perform in front of a crowd of adoring fans. The band broke up and I pulled a Beyonce and went on to have a solo career ;) . When I was younger I dreamed of traveling the world singing in an opera or Broadway musical. "Phantom of the Opera" and "Rigoletto" were always my favorite.

I'm pleased to say I'm writing music again. My friend David and I are collaborating some ideas. Hoping to create some amazing things! Stay tuned on that!

I've always been obsessed with classic films, music, and the glamour of the entertainment industry. I'm pretty sure in all my past lives I was a performer of some sort.

In this life I express myself by entertainment of the adult sort. As a naked panhandling ninja... A model and exotic dancer to be more politically correct. When I dance I feel as if I control the stage. My performance can be whatever I desire and I can completely let go. I can be as completely ridiculous as I desire... let my personality come out full force. I love to entertain...I love the joy in my audience's eyes and the expression on their faces.

When I model I feel this sensation I cannot explain. I love letting myself be one with the moment. I love the way the camera captures it.

If you want to keep up with the adventures...I'm not too hard to find!

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;) Until next time xoxoxo, your Toxy

PS: Stay passionate, Stay positive, always dream big!