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totovader

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Friday Jul 05, 2002

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I've just been ruminating today about the whole issue of trust. In general. How it relates and collides with my life. Or doesn't, as has been the case for brief stretches here and there.

I've never exactly understood the whole phenomena of how you can absolutely DESPISE someone you once loved so deeply that you thought you'd explode with joy? Hence more divorces than marriages. Lame.

Fortunately, I have been very lucky with the family I've chosen for myself, my close friends have been a constant source of comfort and inspiration.

However, I've been having some recurring nightmares lately about situations from over a year ago. I've been having awful visions of a certain undesirable person who only possesses malice, spite, and dangerous wishes toward me. A person who once had me calling my friends and warning them that she'd be the first person to go to if something ever happened to me.

Even though I am now 2000 miles away, I think I'd be safe, no? But the venomous energy has seemingly made its way into my dreams. Perhaps I am just completely out of my mind. Maybe not.

Do you think that there is a good reason or explanation why this wench is starring in my nightmares? Maybe it's a precautionary warning for me?

SG. Cheaper than therapy.

Trixie



VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
totovader:
Well, she's basically sitting next to me and poking my shoulder over and over again with her evil Cheshire cat grin and Pekingese nose.
Jul 5, 2002
macbastard:
Next time she pokes you....eat her. And I am 3 months older than you...Nenner nenner nenner.

Macpal
Jul 6, 2002

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