tosslink

It's a damned HARD thing to admit... I AM cursed when it comes to relationships... TOTALLY MY FAULT I fear. Kharma IS a TOTAL BITCH! I TRY to live life by my own rules... I guess MY rules are NOT acceptable to the universe... either I am just "doing it wrong" or G-D just doesnt LIKE me... I tried again and lost ,once again. It's just that every time I put my Heart out there, it gets broken in a nasty ,bone stripping kinda way. I can deal with no sex... THAT is a choice... But I'm old enough now that I can understand what it is to make the decision NOT to go out and just get laid. I want something more than that. I miss coming home to someone I love. I guess I should be thankfull that I can come home and at least my kitties love me, but even THEY are looking at me funny now! Sex without love leaves the heart unfufilled, love without sex leaves the body COLD.DAMMIT I feel COLD...