Once, a long time ago... I met a girl.... she was lovely and very sweet. Time and circumstance took their toll... I will love her till the day I die... And now I go on , every day... just another day, I MISS her so desperately though... I hope she finds some measure of happiness, but she is like me.... We could have been happy were it not for all the outside influences and total BASTARDS who wanted to fuck up a good thing just because they were not part of it. W e TRIED.... three times over TEN YEARS... we tried... It breaks my heart when I think of her...she is surrounded by people who want to TAKE from her all the things that make her so special. I don't date anymore, there's no point in doing so...I found the one I wanted and needed... and I lost her... So this is my life now... I live day to day knowing that I will never have what I love most. Kinda changes things a bit... All I do now is work to make money... I need to make money so I can at least get my beachhouse and spend my extra time at night sitting on a dune with the waves rolling up on the shore and the smell of the ocean in my head. I wish she were there with me...Laura, my love,who knows, maybe in the next life,,,