tormentedsleep

i'm getting a divorce.
we split up on the 12th.
he was with someone else the next day.

we had sex on the 18th.
twice.
he left my bed, and went directly into hers.
they had sex together for the first time that night.
after he left her, he came back to my bed, and slept by me.

i had no idea.
i assumed.
i guessed.
but i loved him so much, i couldn't let go.
and believed every word he said.

he is with her now.
they are "official".
my name is anne.
her name is anna.

i've never felt so empty.
a piece of my life,
a piece of my heart has gone away.

i don't know if i'll ever open my heart again..

we were married.
we are married.
i would still probably sleep with him if i had the chance.
i would still drop everything to run back into his arms.
after all this,
i am still going to be alone.

i guess it's over now.