So basically, the job thing is not going as well as i would have liked. The people i lead are great for the most part, and they seem to really like me, but it seems the higher up you go, the more you really need to show up on paper. Not so much, yet. i'm sure it will improve, but in the meantime i feel like a first rate ass.
it's chilly outside, and i get to wear scarves. i'm really excited about that. i have a little temperature warning in my car that pings and shows a snowflake when it is less that 39 degrees outside. Lately the snowflake had shown up a lot in the early mornings. It reminds me a lot of when i was living in colorado, but a little less inconvienient, not much need for an icescraper out here, but back in the day you couldn't pry that usefull little tool out of my freezing cold hands.
i thought i was pregnant for a few weeks. found out yesterday that i'm not, and while i am massively relieved (it's probably not the right time for me to have a baby) i have a small part of me that is secretly sad. Not because i over romanticize motherhood or having a child, but more so because i think my guy was finally ready, if he had to be.
powerful stuff.
i bought the new minnie driver cd. she has a lovely low throaty voice that sort of glides down you like something soft. though i don't know if i would reccomend it to anyone...sometimes i think i find music that suits me exactly for the stage my life is in, and it almost feels personal, like if you reccomended it to someone else, you'd have to justify why. and that basically sucks, right?
gym tommorow. be there or be square.
it's chilly outside, and i get to wear scarves. i'm really excited about that. i have a little temperature warning in my car that pings and shows a snowflake when it is less that 39 degrees outside. Lately the snowflake had shown up a lot in the early mornings. It reminds me a lot of when i was living in colorado, but a little less inconvienient, not much need for an icescraper out here, but back in the day you couldn't pry that usefull little tool out of my freezing cold hands.
i thought i was pregnant for a few weeks. found out yesterday that i'm not, and while i am massively relieved (it's probably not the right time for me to have a baby) i have a small part of me that is secretly sad. Not because i over romanticize motherhood or having a child, but more so because i think my guy was finally ready, if he had to be.
powerful stuff.
i bought the new minnie driver cd. she has a lovely low throaty voice that sort of glides down you like something soft. though i don't know if i would reccomend it to anyone...sometimes i think i find music that suits me exactly for the stage my life is in, and it almost feels personal, like if you reccomended it to someone else, you'd have to justify why. and that basically sucks, right?
gym tommorow. be there or be square.
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I will check out Minnie Driver. I didn't know she sang, but I certainly respect your judgement, and you don't have to sell it to me.
It's funny how those close calls have the full range of emotions. I've had a couple, and yes, even though I don't want children, there was some sadness, and a little what if.
I got a new scarf.
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