torihoney

Another week gone by, and not a huge amount to show for it.


What is it about being judged by someone you abhor that makes your blood boil? I have gone out of my way to ensure that someone I work with is completely taken care of and supported even though she doesn't deserve such treatment- cause it's called integrity folks-and in return i am treated with contempt and second guessed with every action i take. We got into a discussion yesterday that made me want to inflict physical violence after we were finished and it made me angry that i was affected at all! I kept telling myself that this person doesn't rank with you, and yet you are reacting as if you respect and internalize all that she thinks about you. Stupid human emotions!!

I am trying to get excited about the upcoming holiday season, i have a lot to be thankful for and more time now that i am not completely immersed in the retail environment. i am working with some amazing people that validate why i continue to work at the compnay i am at, and they really reenergize me in a way that is totally unrelated to work, i must remember how to say thank you in more ways than words.

i love meeting someone that immediately strikes a chord with you and makes you realize that this new person in your life is someone you will fight to make sure you never stop knowing them. i have had a lot of exposure to people like that in the past few months. i only wish some of them lived nearer to me so that we might be able to more easily do some of the mundane things that you tend to want to do with your friends. i've had some of my best conversations come out of completely ordinary activities, where nothing was organized or planned.

i keep getting invited to home parties, and i hate them. i wish that people would understand that if i wanted to buy candles, or food related products, i would get off my ass and go out and buy them. i'm not wild about the high pressure sell, wanting to please, but not wanting to acquire more useless space hogging STUFF. man am i over it!

i keep having these random moments of sheer giddiness, when i am driving or outside walking and i pass trees that are resplendent with color, red leaves make my toes curl. i love the fall, and scarf weather, and coffee in my favorite cup on chilly afternoons. go outside and play in the leaves before they all blow away...