torihoney

I'm feeling very tangled up inside my body cavity. i'd say my heart, but it feels like that's in my throat and my stomach is like a roiling sea.

i met the woman today that is getting a position i didn't even get to interview for. outside hiring is utter crap. they get hired with higher pay, cut waaay more slack if they fuck up, and generally, everyone finds it demeaning to have to train their superior.


i'm looking to improve my communication skills. too often it seems that i am searching the things i said to discover the exact instant my mouth offered up something completely uncalled for.

i don't think i can drink to the point where i am drunk anymore. i have no impulse control and i say and do things that in my right mind wouldn't ever happen... to learn to speak up instead of have another drink and brood. having a meltdown never really solves anything...

snippets through a knothole....go ahead, peek

emotionally bled white
sound of the phone not ringing
elliot smith for the drive
simple phrase too often unsaid
don't blame her you did this
lined up and blindfolded
friendly fire
peering out of my skull
sleepwalking grocery shopping


bitch, bitch, bitch....and i'm spent.