torihoney

all of the turmoil i have had in my life lately is finally over with. i am happier now in the last three days than i have been in at least three years. in light of what had to happen to get there, it's almost comical. nonetheless, i am looking forward to a much more solid future, i feel like i have a chance at real happiness, and it only took my ability to stop being a victim and start being an adult.
now it seems that i had so many things convoluted that i have destroyed relationships that were once very important to me... at the time they seemed pivotal, but surreal. i wish i could just talk to her and set everything right. so many obstacles to overcome, so many months spent apart, wondering if i was ever someone that mattered....it kills me to think it was a mere shadow of what things could have been. hopefully, risks will be taken, and understanding will follow.

and i'm spent.