Tuesday Apr 20, 2004

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all of the turmoil i have had in my life lately is finally over with. i am happier now in the last three days than i have been in at least three years. in light of what had to happen to get there, it's almost comical. nonetheless, i am looking forward to a much more solid future, i feel like i have a chance at real happiness, and it only took my ability to stop being a victim and start being an adult.
now it seems that i had so many things convoluted that i have destroyed relationships that were once very important to me... at the time they seemed pivotal, but surreal. i wish i could just talk to her and set everything right. so many obstacles to overcome, so many months spent apart, wondering if i was ever someone that mattered....it kills me to think it was a mere shadow of what things could have been. hopefully, risks will be taken, and understanding will follow.

and i'm spent. whatever
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frylock:
are you justifying a booty call?
ericj:
Digging the happier you! But, don't beat yourself up too much, cool? Sometimes shit just doesn't work, and that's the way it's supposed to be. Sucks, but sometimes it's true. I still love my ex to death, but we're just wrong for each other. It's not her fault, and it's not mine, we're just different people and expect and can give different things that don't match completely. We're still great friends because I think we both know it and don't hold it against the other. May not have anything at all to do with what you're talking about though. smile

In any case, keep being happy, sista', it looks good on you.

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