so i found this lump in my neck. i went to see the doc today and she said i had swollen lymph nodes of some sort (there was an official scary sounding name, but for the life of me i can't remember it) and so i have to take antibiotics to see if it's just aninfection of some sort. but i've had it for a...
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shayne:
thanks! the light in my parents dining room is excellent... in that residential sunshiny neighbourhood way. It just sucks when unexpectedly mail delivery comes to the door and you have to jump hurdles of chairs and table to get out of the room before they see you naked! 
i really appreciate a good pair of panties too!
i really appreciate a good pair of panties too! 
stitchy:
deary, i assume you are still alive?? 
i am seeing a lot of people i really admired leaving the site and it makes me sad. i've learned a great deal about people in my dealings with others, whether it be by writing in their journals or reading their comments on the boards and being blown away at how spot on people are sometimes- saying what i think or feel in a way...
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jeff_fries:
I broke up with a girl I wasn't really dating. How's that for weird?
madigan:
This better not mean that you're leaving. I will not allow it. I mean really, if all your friends jumped off a bridge, would you? Pff.
Seriously though, California needs to turn on the a.c. -- it's fucking hot.
Hm, the weirdest thing? I just gave another 'straight girl' the gay. Look out people, it's contagious!
Seriously though, California needs to turn on the a.c. -- it's fucking hot.
Hm, the weirdest thing? I just gave another 'straight girl' the gay. Look out people, it's contagious!
so the comic con is in san diego, and i wasn't very proactive about getting certain days off, so suffice to say- i'm not going this year. which really sucks, because i had a good time last year. well, up to the point where my car got killed on the freeway driving back. (may she rest in peace...) so i'm home alone, with too much...
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cellosoul:
Sux when good friends leave, huh? : ( scheisse.
Well, it's a good excuse for going on more roadtrips.
"Perris"ites! I love that. That's hilarious...
Hm...about that barista idea...on second thought... Nah, all jobs have suck-i-tude in them for sure, damn it all. Still looking for an extra gig. Still thinking of baristadom. Here's hoping more of it rolls of your back, darling one.
Luv,
s
Well, it's a good excuse for going on more roadtrips.
"Perris"ites! I love that. That's hilarious...
Hm...about that barista idea...on second thought...
Nah, all jobs have suck-i-tude in them for sure, damn it all. Still looking for an extra gig. Still thinking of baristadom. Here's hoping more of it rolls of your back, darling one.
Luv,
s
flygirl:
thats so funny about the perrisites....and so true. i had to laugh.
today was one of my longest on record at work...i'd like to say i know that it's all going to be for the good, but life just doesn't work that way, you know? my district manager is on vacation this week and i am running the district and my own store at the same time...i feel so stressed that i might burst into hysterical laughter...
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killgannon:
im sory to hear that baby i hate long days at work but there is always tomorrow
ericj:
Hey, young lady! 
Just in case you don't see it on my journal, I'm going to be at the Image booth from 4:00PM-5:00 Thursday and 5:00PM-6:00 Saturday. Those are the only times I'll be signing this weekend. If you want to, though, e-mail me and I'll drop you my cel # so you can reach me if you make it down to the con. Looking forward to meeting you as well. eric@shrunkenheadstudios.com
Just in case you don't see it on my journal, I'm going to be at the Image booth from 4:00PM-5:00 Thursday and 5:00PM-6:00 Saturday. Those are the only times I'll be signing this weekend. If you want to, though, e-mail me and I'll drop you my cel # so you can reach me if you make it down to the con. Looking forward to meeting you as well. eric@shrunkenheadstudios.comanother week, gone like that... (poof!)
i'm trying not to squander what little time i have free these days, but when you have no energy, it's hard to get motivated to do much of anything. i have been running almost every day in the hopes that it will motivate me to be more productive if i feel physically fitter, but so far that's been slow...
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i'm trying not to squander what little time i have free these days, but when you have no energy, it's hard to get motivated to do much of anything. i have been running almost every day in the hopes that it will motivate me to be more productive if i feel physically fitter, but so far that's been slow...
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destructive79:
i used to write short stories for filmic purposes. when i used to have time on my hands before i started working my current job. and also before we formed the band. now i spend the most time writing music. i find it satisfies my need to be creative just fine. have fun at work.
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jeff_fries:
God I wish I could stomach myself long enough to finish a short story. Good luck.
so i spent a long lazy day off by myself, slept in late and had a nice bowl of cereal with tivo this morning. i had many thoughts of what might be better spent activities than the ones i chose today, but i didn't get around to any of them, save one. i went for a run in the late morning, and i'm extremely glad...
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johnnyt:
CSI over SVU? no. I don't think so. The ensemble is way too strong on SVU. I think Jack Skellington, Edward Gorey and Neil Finn would all agree with me. (Yes, I KNOW Gorey is dead). 
Oh, and I agree on Erin's amazing bottom lip! Have you seen Cherry with new boy hair? Her "bitchcam" pics make me just want to bite that lip!
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Oh, and I agree on Erin's amazing bottom lip! Have you seen Cherry with new boy hair? Her "bitchcam" pics make me just want to bite that lip!
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lores:
Cheers for the comment.
That special someone made your week yet?
That special someone made your week yet?
I channeled all of my pent up worry and waiting on someone else to show up emotionally into words last night. i wrote a short story that i'm sure will show itself to be utter pith, but it's the exercise that my mind needs, to flex my brain that seems to atrophy with each passing day. i want to write for a living, i want...
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trixel:
I'm practicing too, admittedly not that intently. I hope one day to submit something.
I know what you mean about words getting you hot. I've had some quite delightful moments with a writer involving only words. In fact, I'd venture to say more satisfying than some of my face to face encounters.
all of your "gets me hot" section i just want to give an amen to, save one: I love somewhat unnatural scents, in the sense that a clean, lightly soapy smelling body makes me weak in the knees.
I like that smell too. I love smells. Smells and sounds are wired directly to the core of me. Often I can describe a situation most effectively with a remembered scent.
I keep meaning to buy some Sarah Harmer. She's Canadian and I should support her.
I hope you are having a good weekend, dear girl.
I know what you mean about words getting you hot. I've had some quite delightful moments with a writer involving only words. In fact, I'd venture to say more satisfying than some of my face to face encounters.
all of your "gets me hot" section i just want to give an amen to, save one: I love somewhat unnatural scents, in the sense that a clean, lightly soapy smelling body makes me weak in the knees.
I like that smell too. I love smells. Smells and sounds are wired directly to the core of me. Often I can describe a situation most effectively with a remembered scent.
I keep meaning to buy some Sarah Harmer. She's Canadian and I should support her.
I hope you are having a good weekend, dear girl.
cellosoul:
Ah...sigh...Tori Amos...that's all I can say. Trying to say more would get in the way of your well-phrased sentiments. Keep on expressing yourself, girl.
wuv
s
wuv
s
I'm feeling very tangled up inside my body cavity. i'd say my heart, but it feels like that's in my throat and my stomach is like a roiling sea.
i met the woman today that is getting a position i didn't even get to interview for. outside hiring is utter crap. they get hired with higher pay, cut waaay more slack if they fuck up,...
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flygirl:
Your right hiring externally really does suck. Im not sure what you do but when I used to work in finance for this huge corporate momster, they too tending to hire externally into management positions to avoid having to transition a non exempt into an exempt position where they may be having to manage their peers. Its total fucking bullshit but it can be effective. Not necessarily in the way of finding the best person for the job but more to quash any internal conflic should there be one. I am so fucking glad I quit that job. The company I am working for now does skill based promotions for the first 3 years of employment. Where you actually take classes and test into your promotion. So its guarenteed that if you are bright and have iniciative you will succeede. I am diggin that.
You should feel free to bitch. If you brood you will eventually explode and thats so no healthy. Richard Ashcroft said it best when he wrote..."Happiness is more or less just a change in ME somthing in MY liberty"
have a great day!
-lynn
ps you are lovely
You should feel free to bitch. If you brood you will eventually explode and thats so no healthy. Richard Ashcroft said it best when he wrote..."Happiness is more or less just a change in ME somthing in MY liberty"
have a great day!
-lynn
ps you are lovely
mr_demille:
drive by comment...
"sleepwaking grocery shopping" is a very cool line. Brings a kind of "aisles of the living dead" image to mind.
cheers,
~b
"sleepwaking grocery shopping" is a very cool line. Brings a kind of "aisles of the living dead" image to mind.
cheers,
~b
i pushed the snooze button twice this morning. that's two more times than i ever do. i also bargained with myself, and rationalized that if i weighed less than x, i didn't have to go running this morning before work, i would wait to do it after i got home. i'm happy to say i have a belly full of cinnamon toast crunch and my...
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ver0nika23:
blah. starbucks is what starbucks is. (do you work for them or someone else?) i have worked for them for 7 years now, and have a hard time feeling comfortable when i have to deal with the district manager. just remember, we can unionize whenever we get together!
cellosoul:
And I wonder how *you* remember all the little things *you* do.
Love the Mom within. Your Mom will respond (ask me how I know!).
Find a houseboy/girl. S/he will do your laundry.
Love the Mom within. Your Mom will respond (ask me how I know!).
Find a houseboy/girl. S/he will do your laundry.
i had dinner tonight with an old friend, a girl i used to be best friends with in high school. it's really quite amazing to me that even though we travel in different social circles, we see each other and it's as if no time has passed, we talk and laugh as easily as we ever have, and yet- i never see her.
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trixel:
i love knowing that something i said or did was significant to someone i like, i live for that...and yet i pretty much deny myself those opportunities on a daily basis.
I completely understand where you're coming from there. I've been asking myself the same question.
I completely understand where you're coming from there. I've been asking myself the same question.
stitchy:
That is true....easy returns at VS...still sucks returning tho. I don't think there is anything "last chance" about VS - with all the catalogs they send...they don't give the impression that it will be the last chance to purchase any of that stuff!
have you ever sat across a table from someone that you have looked at and studied their face at least a hundred times, and see them in a completely different way? i sat across the table from a friend of mine tonight and i was taken aback at how beautiful she is. her eyes are lighter than i have recalled in the past and in...
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trixel:
I wish I lived down the street from you too, lovely. The thought that I could inspire you in any way puts a great big happy grin on my face. Thank you!
I had a similar experience with my sister yesterday. We haven't been spending much time together of late. I went over to her place and had breakfast. We sat around drinking coffee, eating biscotti, and playing scrabble and mancala. We had a long talk, full of laughter and she started talking about scars for some reason. She pointed out a bump in the palm of her hand.
She said she'd gotten it running in the rain when we were in high school. It was my prom night and she had wanted to be outside the auditorium to see me in my prom finery. She'd slipped and embedded a small pebble in there. I never knew she'd come to see me all dressed up. It touched me and I smiled at her. We looked at each other for a few minutes, not speaking, casting our minds back to when we were silly girls together. I saw her as I'd not seen her before.
I had a similar experience with my sister yesterday. We haven't been spending much time together of late. I went over to her place and had breakfast. We sat around drinking coffee, eating biscotti, and playing scrabble and mancala. We had a long talk, full of laughter and she started talking about scars for some reason. She pointed out a bump in the palm of her hand.
She said she'd gotten it running in the rain when we were in high school. It was my prom night and she had wanted to be outside the auditorium to see me in my prom finery. She'd slipped and embedded a small pebble in there. I never knew she'd come to see me all dressed up. It touched me and I smiled at her. We looked at each other for a few minutes, not speaking, casting our minds back to when we were silly girls together. I saw her as I'd not seen her before.
cellosoul:
Ah....just drew a wistful sigh upon reading this. At a loss for words recently...
Appreciating all the lovely SG kids who fill in those blanks divinely, like yourself.
s
Appreciating all the lovely SG kids who fill in those blanks divinely, like yourself.
s
so i'm faced with a dilemna... do i let someone that i care about extricate themselves out of my life because of a misunderstanding that i didn't mean to cause, or do i fight for them to let me back in? i understand alot about wanting to be solitary, to not need or seek others out in order to feel like your life is complete...aren't...
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cellosoul:
Goodness. Well, I did email you some of my lookie-loo feedback. Wishing you the best, for goodness' sake.
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FYI as well, below.
I'm posting, as you'd asked, and I was seriously pep-talked re: getting out in the world today, and letting folks know about what I'm doing.
So, I'm performing:
http://suicidegirls.com/calendar/8455/
More gigs to come.
Take it easy,
s
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FYI as well, below.
I'm posting, as you'd asked, and I was seriously pep-talked re: getting out in the world today, and letting folks know about what I'm doing.
So, I'm performing:
http://suicidegirls.com/calendar/8455/
More gigs to come.
Take it easy,
s
trixel:
I hope Cathy realizes your sincerity, sweet girl.