Days off tend to frustrate me. i always make these grandiose plans in my head and then berate myself for getting 1/4 of them actualy accomplished. Why should i always have to be productive on days that are really necessary to relax and recharge so that i'm not empty when i get back out into the grind? my brain can't seem to shut off my...
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So basically, the job thing is not going as well as i would have liked. The people i lead are great for the most part, and they seem to really like me, but it seems the higher up you go, the more you really need to show up on paper. Not so much, yet. i'm sure it will improve, but in the meantime i feel...
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trixel:
I haven't worked out for 3 days. *hides*
I will check out Minnie Driver. I didn't know she sang, but I certainly respect your judgement, and you don't have to sell it to me.
It's funny how those close calls have the full range of emotions. I've had a couple, and yes, even though I don't want children, there was some sadness, and a little what if.
I got a new scarf. It's bright orange and purple and utterly inadequate for the insane cold where I live, but I'm looking forward to wearing it a) as a boa and b) in spring when it's not quite so nuts here. 
I will check out Minnie Driver. I didn't know she sang, but I certainly respect your judgement, and you don't have to sell it to me.
It's funny how those close calls have the full range of emotions. I've had a couple, and yes, even though I don't want children, there was some sadness, and a little what if.
I got a new scarf.
It's bright orange and purple and utterly inadequate for the insane cold where I live, but I'm looking forward to wearing it a) as a boa and b) in spring when it's not quite so nuts here. 
cellosoul:
Did not know Minnie Driver had a CD out...hm! Interesting! Wish we could be gym buddies...your energy motivates me. Oh, goodness.
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I laughed so hard tonight that i almost peed myself.
Better yet, tears squirted from my eyes. I hung out with a group of people tonight that made the last few weeks worth it...for a few hours i was able to regress allll the way back to high school and be the crazy entertaining girl that used to be fun on lunch break. god i...
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Better yet, tears squirted from my eyes. I hung out with a group of people tonight that made the last few weeks worth it...for a few hours i was able to regress allll the way back to high school and be the crazy entertaining girl that used to be fun on lunch break. god i...
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cellosoul:
Snow? Where, where...did you get to enjoy some? Boootyfull!
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vlo:
I love getting crazy and feeling 16 again... 
STRESSED.
not sure how to stop the random eye twitching or my aching shoulders. i wish i could just slow down and get some perspective, but i don't see an end in sight until december.
i'm about two minutes from freaking out.
breathe, stupid. alright, i'm going to get through this. it should take a lot more to break me down. i know everything will...
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not sure how to stop the random eye twitching or my aching shoulders. i wish i could just slow down and get some perspective, but i don't see an end in sight until december.
i'm about two minutes from freaking out.
breathe, stupid. alright, i'm going to get through this. it should take a lot more to break me down. i know everything will...
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oddwobbler:
I think you summed up my last two months in your last two entries.. What does that say about my journal skills?
I'm pretty sure I have the eye twitch down at this point..
I'm pretty sure I have the eye twitch down at this point..
jbone:
Life is hard then you die...but I still want to live as long as possible, even if it is hard. It's an amazing thing to be alive, even if it is a difficult struggle. Hope the journey gets easier for you soon...
I noticed in your profile you said you like strange vocabulary words. Have you ever read Catch-22? It has words in it like infundibuliform, mulled claret, and corpulent; among many, many others. I think it's fun to read it with a dictionary in one hand. In fact, I think that's how it must have been written...lol
I noticed in your profile you said you like strange vocabulary words. Have you ever read Catch-22? It has words in it like infundibuliform, mulled claret, and corpulent; among many, many others. I think it's fun to read it with a dictionary in one hand. In fact, I think that's how it must have been written...lol
Another week gone by, and not a huge amount to show for it.
What is it about being judged by someone you abhor that makes your blood boil? I have gone out of my way to ensure that someone I work with is completely taken care of and supported even though she doesn't deserve such treatment- cause it's called integrity folks-and in return i am...
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What is it about being judged by someone you abhor that makes your blood boil? I have gone out of my way to ensure that someone I work with is completely taken care of and supported even though she doesn't deserve such treatment- cause it's called integrity folks-and in return i am...
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superjoint:
it's when you realize you're only existing you can no longer react, you welcome
madigan:
The fall season is wonderful. Is it silly to wonder how many people just stop and admire the colors while out walking? I often wonder if people simply stop for a moment and admire anything anymore.
I'm conditioning myself to like actual coffee. It is very difficult.
I'm conditioning myself to like actual coffee. It is very difficult.
I hate that I haven't updated in a while... i have been really busy, and super sapped when i get home, so this all equates to zero computer time that isn't work related.
so i got the promotion. they offered me the job (the permanent one) two weeks ago. i am now commuting about 3 hours round trip a day (what with the horrid traffic...
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so i got the promotion. they offered me the job (the permanent one) two weeks ago. i am now commuting about 3 hours round trip a day (what with the horrid traffic...
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ericj:
All of that sounds really cool, well, besides the Halloween alone thing, hope it was fun nonetheless. Congrats on the promotion and the award.
I feel your pain on the busy thing, I've been out of my mind busy lately.
Congrats on the promotion and the award.
I feel your pain on the busy thing, I've been out of my mind busy lately.
cellosoul:
I am digging the way you wrote about your life. Love. Making the best of some less than yummy elements. Prosaically, no less. Missed your words, too.
Drive-by-hugging,
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Drive-by-hugging,
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welly welly well!
another week gone by... where does my time fly off to these days? it seems like i am pyhsically far less busy, and yet i can't seem to get the things done that i want to. though i can say i have continued to run almost daily for the past week, and that seems like a small victory after my great period...
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another week gone by... where does my time fly off to these days? it seems like i am pyhsically far less busy, and yet i can't seem to get the things done that i want to. though i can say i have continued to run almost daily for the past week, and that seems like a small victory after my great period...
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trixel:
*hug* I trust and hope your world is well.
trixel:
I miss you.
so let's just say i am the resident liberated woman... i changed my own tire last night on the freeway in the dark.
i'm so happy when i'm self sufficient.
off to a conference, not much fun at all. i am fiending to reply to some of your journals, and to have a life! sheesh!
i went running the other night, listening to melancholy music,...
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i'm so happy when i'm self sufficient.
off to a conference, not much fun at all. i am fiending to reply to some of your journals, and to have a life! sheesh!
i went running the other night, listening to melancholy music,...
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lillithvain:
Thank you for the lovely comments you left on my set. I really appreciated it and it was very wonderful of you!!!
vlo:
good for u changing ur own tire....i did that and i bent my ring.. 
but i did it and u too...but in the dark bythe freeway..dangerous..we drive so fast here
but i did it and u too...but in the dark bythe freeway..dangerous..we drive so fast here new job... no time for much, strangely though, considering my hours are more regular than they've ever been.
it's starting to get darker earlier.. and that makes me happy. that and getting new pj pants.
yay me.
if you could listen to any two people have a conversation without them knowing you were listening, who would they be?
me? george bush and anyone in his...
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it's starting to get darker earlier.. and that makes me happy. that and getting new pj pants.
yay me.
if you could listen to any two people have a conversation without them knowing you were listening, who would they be?
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trixel:
i sometimes wish i could just sit by you quietly and drink you in.
That was a lovely thing for you to say.
The funny thing is, some people ratchet me into hyper ADD overdrive. I'm not absolving all responsibility for my state, but I will say that I certainly like the calmness I feel around some. I suspect you would be one of those serene people.
That was a lovely thing for you to say.
The funny thing is, some people ratchet me into hyper ADD overdrive. I'm not absolving all responsibility for my state, but I will say that I certainly like the calmness I feel around some. I suspect you would be one of those serene people.
cellosoul:
Congrats on the new employ! Hm... for some strange reason I'm thinking Madonna and Guy Ritchie... this will change within seconds, I'm sure.
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Hm... for some strange reason I'm thinking Madonna and Guy Ritchie... this will change within seconds, I'm sure.
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just got back from a seminar from work that was a little too 'kumbaya" to be ultimately effective. there's just something to be said about a guest speaker that cries while he is relating a story that illustrated one of his many points. long story short- i broke a board in half with my bare hands... it's probably just because i just watched kill bill...
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deathcabforuglie:
best childhood memory?...i have too many about almost accidently killing either of my two brothers on a few occasions...but they weren't my fault...
as far as a "happy thought"...ummmmmm:
this is silly..but when i was eight i broke my leg..i thought i was superman and jumped off of my porch...ten feet to the ground....not a lot..but i was a kid...and i took the hint from the eighteen year old a few houses down..he could do it, so i thought i should try...anyway...after i screamed my head off and someone found me i ended up riding in the car in that kid's older sister's lap...she was like...21...fucking gorgeous..and she held me in her arms and i rested my head on her chest and i was in love...
=)...after that moment i like getting hurt...cause there's generally someone cute to console you...generally...
xoxo,
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as far as a "happy thought"...ummmmmm:
this is silly..but when i was eight i broke my leg..i thought i was superman and jumped off of my porch...ten feet to the ground....not a lot..but i was a kid...and i took the hint from the eighteen year old a few houses down..he could do it, so i thought i should try...anyway...after i screamed my head off and someone found me i ended up riding in the car in that kid's older sister's lap...she was like...21...fucking gorgeous..and she held me in her arms and i rested my head on her chest and i was in love...
=)...after that moment i like getting hurt...cause there's generally someone cute to console you...generally...
xoxo,
j
zeus013:
you were talking about childhood memories are mine were about the admoration of my parents from a distants the understanding of mentors from afar the true meaning of a lantino males in todays life, but evolved.
i think the day i've been waiting for is almost here...i find out tommorow whether or not i am being offered a permanent DM position..i hope so, because this last year has been tough! and how sweet would it be to get out of retail proper before christmas? every year i hate the holidays because i am trapped behind the counter, facing the masses that...
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mooby24:
glad your feeling better! i cant stand retail.. ive tried to avoid any and all masses for years....
i have to take my dad out for dinner in temecula, i was thinking like japanese steakhouse type... any recommendations?
i have to take my dad out for dinner in temecula, i was thinking like japanese steakhouse type... any recommendations?
grizz3rd:
I hope you get the job you want. Best of luck
the plot thickens...
i had a seizure at work on monday, and was taken to the emergency room. i just got back from an appt with a neurologist, and he thinks it was cause by a drug interaction between something i was already taking and an antibiotic called levaquin. i've done some looking around online and this stuff seems like bad news. do yourself a...
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i had a seizure at work on monday, and was taken to the emergency room. i just got back from an appt with a neurologist, and he thinks it was cause by a drug interaction between something i was already taking and an antibiotic called levaquin. i've done some looking around online and this stuff seems like bad news. do yourself a...
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jawyoga:
god that's scary. i hope your ok. feel better
madigan:
That's pretty scary, darlin'. I hope everything is okay.
I do the same thing on my days off. I spend a whole lot of time thinking of all the great things I wanna do, then waste the whole day not making a decision on which one I want to do. I'm terrible at picking one thing out of many.
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