toribell

I like this picture... but I've been told I look really young in it. I am, of course, young, but it's beginning to bug me that people think I look THAT young.




Thank you all for the love on my set. It seems to be doing well on SG, but the MySpace reaction was horrible. I'm not sure I have read a worst SG blog. A lot of it amuses me greatly, but there was a couple comments about kiddie porn. I guess they just bother me more considering all that is going on.

I can't say everything I want about the case until it's all done. I think I'm just going to save it all and write a short novella when it's over as final closure and because it will be an interesting story.

Until then.

12-5-08
This is where the hate begins again
And I wonder who is to blame
For the pain I am in

I thought I was so adult
But perhaps the mantle was too heavy
For a child to bear

I didn't quite realize
What the word victim meant
Just that I hated it
And I would never give in

I made mistakes
So many mistakes
And I've paid
Paid a horrible price

But is it my fault?
Can I safely give away the blame?

Who will take this guilt?
Who will meter it away?

It's too late for the child
The child who grew old
But for the woman
There is hope

Would the wounds heal faster
If they were not self-inflicted?
Victim.

Child victim.
Adult criminal.

New terms.
Rearrange.
Old memories.
Seen in new light.

I didn't want this
Survivor I can take
Victim sounds so weak.