torai

Umm Sunday, usallly my fave of all the days, but not today however.


i wOKe up in shock from a dream that consisted of a snake bite on the finger, from which i almost die from, but i get a shot in the heart with a 12g needle. That brings me back from deaths door step.

Needless to say, i sat straight up...sweating snd heavy breathing.

I have been having these crazy vivd dreams for about a week now. All different but the same feeling of urgencey, fear and just a general feeling of need.

hmm i think i need another coffee.

Edit to say suday turned out to be one of the worest, LAST night my bf chucks me. I am lost, uspet, confused. I have never givin so much to someone else. I know that this cant last forever, but right now i dont really care about that. I just know that right now, i need something in my life to be awesome and loving and there for me no matter what. But i dont want to keep trying.

Eveyone i love is soo far away from me right now.

well i could spend hours venting to this box, and i probably will come back and edit this again to vent, but monday morning and i got a shit load of stuff to do. Yeah!!!

I dont want to wake up crying anymore.