More of you are into anal than I thought!
The only GOOD thing I have to say today is that it's October and I yearn to be an Original Star Trek girly in a red dress for Halloween. The dresses are like $65 on ebay so it probably won't happen, but thinking about it makes me momentarily happy.
Now for the BAD. Come on, you knew it was only a matter of time before toolgirl was sad. I knew I would crash after the vacation. FUCK! It's also started raining here in Seattle today and that means the beginning of 9 months of grey. I am so fucking predictable.
The UGLY.... Question: How can a day start so good and turn so bad? My brain loves feeling shitty, that's how. It's like a drug. Brain and brain what is brain? (You have to LOVE original star trek to get that one)
A friend once told me that everyone has a "gig" for how they do relationships (friendships, family, significant others, etc.). Mine is "You don't know me." You don't tell people your gig, you just do it. So how do I achieve this? I am way too nice to people. I rarely form lasting relationships. I fool most people and they don't know it. I listen to people too much. They dump on me. I adjust my mood and manner for people. I accommodate people. I withhold the truth regularly. I don't share. I edit. It's what I do. In my mind I can always justify not sharing my "true self" with people because they will never really know me anyway so what's the point?
My self-absorbed brain is sure enjoying this. It's positively drunk with the depressant "negativity." I'm sure I'll be back to normal tomorrow.
What's your "gig?"
The only GOOD thing I have to say today is that it's October and I yearn to be an Original Star Trek girly in a red dress for Halloween. The dresses are like $65 on ebay so it probably won't happen, but thinking about it makes me momentarily happy.
Now for the BAD. Come on, you knew it was only a matter of time before toolgirl was sad. I knew I would crash after the vacation. FUCK! It's also started raining here in Seattle today and that means the beginning of 9 months of grey. I am so fucking predictable.
The UGLY.... Question: How can a day start so good and turn so bad? My brain loves feeling shitty, that's how. It's like a drug. Brain and brain what is brain? (You have to LOVE original star trek to get that one)
A friend once told me that everyone has a "gig" for how they do relationships (friendships, family, significant others, etc.). Mine is "You don't know me." You don't tell people your gig, you just do it. So how do I achieve this? I am way too nice to people. I rarely form lasting relationships. I fool most people and they don't know it. I listen to people too much. They dump on me. I adjust my mood and manner for people. I accommodate people. I withhold the truth regularly. I don't share. I edit. It's what I do. In my mind I can always justify not sharing my "true self" with people because they will never really know me anyway so what's the point?
My self-absorbed brain is sure enjoying this. It's positively drunk with the depressant "negativity." I'm sure I'll be back to normal tomorrow.
What's your "gig?"
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dx927:
well i'm not going to tell you my gig cuz as you put it "you don't tell people your gig, you just do it" duh! 
zeus013:
does it sometime feel like your screaming but, your not making any sound?