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The high tide put the flame out on my bom fire. What i thought would be good turned out to be something she did not want. We as Men try to acomodate Women yet we are not always on the same page. What we think is good sometimes is going to be bad, and what we deem as bad sometimes is funny and acceptable. We will never know what their reactions will be and in turn we are the ones walking on eggshells arround women. Yet we get through it or let go when its worth it. I wont take anything negative out of what I have lived with her. I will live through this like I have many of times before. But her Image haunts me in to a deliscous dream and that makes me want to live for ever. And I do want to be by her side but apparently its not going to happen soon. I have to problem of being emotional and its because of my past relationships, My Kids Mom was an Atomic Bitch and I learned to fight throuh it, and after that No More I thought, but there I go again. Impulsive behavior sometimes prevails. God I wish I would get ahold of my self and create a new life without having to feel guilty about how you feel or react upon certaing situations. Fuck That I am Strong and I will stick to my guns, and I will regaing the personal conciousness I need to keep on Trucking. I am real sorry for the mental bable upon the screen but I had to get it out me. I love her but I have to let it go.........