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so tomorrow, my dad and i leave for our cross-country road trip to move my sister back to cleveland from spokane, washington. it's gonna be a hell of a lot of driving, but i've always loved road trips. not to mention the fact that my dad smokes, too, so it's not like i have to act like i don't smoke or go crazy or whatever. so i'll just drive, chain smoke, drink monster, and listen to music for a few days in a row. and i have my dad to drive, too. i'm sure it'll be fine. i'm really actually looking forward to it.

the thing that concerns me most at the moment is that i'm so fucking exhausted today and tomorrow's gonna be the worst day of driving. i went to cedar point yesterday with a bunch of my friends as a last hoorah type thing for our friend amy, who's moving to texas to be a teacher. so were there all day long, which is a lot of physical, outdoor activity and it just drained me. i'm gonna have to actually stay sober tonight and get some serious sleep.

so fun story: i signed up for a dating site. i know maybe not the best idea. but so a girl approached me and we decided to hang out. the whole situation makes me feel kinda bad. first off, i had to drive an hour and a half to her house while altogether cost me more gas/money than i could spare (luckily, my low fuel light didn't go on until i was on my street). then, i get there, and, i mean, she didn't look like her pictures really, but that's not that that's what bothered me. what bothered me was that she barely talked to me. and i mean, i know that it's kind of an awkward situation, but i tried really hard to be friendly and talkative and whatever, but i felt like she talked to her cat more than she talked to me. it just sucked i guess. and it's just a drag because it'd be nice to have something with someone again. i've finally decided that i've had enough time for myself, and that i can be seriously involved with someone again. i guess. i don't know. but i won't know until something happens. but i can't help feeling like nothing's gonna happen.

long story short, i'm frustrated and lonely, but i'm trying to be hopeful and not quite as cynical as usual. time will only tell.

so in any case, it'd be nice to hear from people while i'm off on the road. i'll be checking my computer every night. kind thoughts, advice, or even just a hello would be greatly appreciated. take care, kids.