tonkakatt

my best friend Janeen moved in today, it's been hellacous the past few weeks leading up to this point, now all her stuff is here and we're trying to integrate everything with all the crap I currently own.
I'm planning on getting her a gift membership to sg, so you can all share in her lovliness, we've got to get her online though, I need to get a wireless router and some other crap to make that happen though.
hopefully by the end of the week we'll both be online, and have all our shit put away and what not.

someone very special to me called me last night at 1am, I was soooooo tired and incoherant I'm sure I made absolutely so sense at all. he moved out of state a while ago and I would give the world to have him back here.


my divorce hearing is tomorrow at 9am, I'm nervous as fuck! I get all freaked out and cry when I'm confronted by people of authority, everytime I get pulled over by a cop I loose it, and everytime I've gone to court for anything I bust out crying too. if I do it tomorrow I'll look like I'm a mess and they could not grant my divorce thinking I'm not firm in my decisions. but I am and I do. I might take some anti anxiety pills before I go, I know if I smoke a bit of pot that'll calm me down but I don't want to smell like woodstock either, that could be more troubles than I need. I think its lorazapan, I keep forgetting which of my pills is the muscle relaxer and which is the nerve destresser/anti-anxiety. I'll have to look it up later.

thats it for now....nite nite.