tonkakatt

I guess I'm officially single again. its been a really fucked up 2 months. I fell for a guy who was completely wrong for me. I really tried to make it work. it seemed like every week he'd pick a fight with me, we'd argue over nothing in particular...usually something he'd misunderstood and he'd translate my words or actions to suit his argument. nothing I said or did was right. he could find fault in just about anything. I really don't want to get into all the issues, but there was a ton. tonight he accused me of going back to my ex when I told him he was right we had too many diofferences and we shouldn't see each other any more....LMFAO!!!! why the fuck would I want my ex back??? he's an ex for a reason!!! it didn't fucking work out
sometimes you have to walk away from a situation. I realized that last night (Thurs) wehn he told me about how he was gonna stab me if I ever cheated on him, then he continues to tell me about how he'd get away with it...so forth and so on...I kept saying "you're kidding right???" he just kept going on and on...and laughing about it.....it completely freaked me the fuck out!!!!! <--- me!! then when he got out of the car he said "oh I was just kidding about stabbing you" ummmm...yeah right...about that....ITS NOT FUCKING FUNNY!!!! then he continued to pick at me and try to fight when we were on the phone later that same night...
ya know what...
I don't need the drama...
I don't need the immaturity...
I don't need the insecurity....
I don't need the jealousy...
I don't need the accusations...
I don't need the internet stalking...
I don't need the fucking death threats!!
I'd rather be alone.
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Saturday:
today I feel sad. sad for trying to make something work that didn't. sad for hurting someone. all the emotions still haven't hit me yet...that we broke up. I know that I did the right thing. he's got a lot of growing up to do before he can be with someone. I'm still standing firm that I did the right thing. you should never have fear of the person you're with.

My sister is graduating high school today..right now. I couldn't find a place to park and it pouring out so I went to get her card (and buy 1 for my Dad to give her too) and finish doing laundry. I'll go to the party in a little while.