I hate nights like this, I feel so drained and exhausted, but this stupid ass anxiety keeps me up. Some days it feels like you gain some control back in your life but then anxiety will pull it right away. There are so many thoughts that run through my head I don't know what's real and what's not. One of the worst things is losing the people I was close with because with this disorder you need love somewhere in your life and when your constantly surrounded by negativity it makes you feel like your in a downward spiral. I just want to feel somewhat normal in my head and try to find positivity to surround myself with and its the hardest thing to do right now. Ok I'm done ranting now, goodnight SG
