tommytwotone

I hurt I am so tiered of this cant sleep for more than just a couple of hours at a time and I have allways been one of those peaple that it takes a hour or so to goto sleep so I sleep like tonight I was so tiered it was before 12 I thought ya I'm going to sleep early maybe I will actualy sleep no by before three I'm up and hurting got to move got to streach back is killing me for peaple that dont realy know me I have had one or three realy bad back injuries I broke my neck at nine hurt my lower back at 17 and also ruend my hip unlouding trucks by hand for a grocery store I went to a DR then he walked into the room never touched me and said I was to young to have back problems and left so my lovly mom gave me a bounch of pain killers and I went back to work for my dad for in my family that is what you do I stayed on pain killers for about 3 years before I could live without them then when I got laid off in 2001 from constuction witch I did for about 10 years I tried to drive a truck the on the road traner rolled the truck while I was in the sleeper thats realy what did me in I worked for a couple of years after that but it just got bad I started needing a can where ever I went and it got worse just to much pain to be able to work and now just to get a good night sleep the only good thing that came about me not working any more was that I relized what my wife had become I always worked most of the time two jobs even after the last accedent I knew she didnt treat me very well but I couldnt beleave how she was treating the kids that was when I drew the line I tried to work with her but she couldnt get over the fact also that I wasnt going back to work even the DR tried telling her I mean I worked the last three years with the DR telling me to stop I worked one job and had a business of my own on the weekends I sold swords and knives at the flea mkt never taking a day off exept there at the end my employer realy didnt want me to leave they ofered a raise told me my labore could be higher evrything they even still call every now and then just to make sure some DR hasnt come up with some mircle cure I just want to be able to sleep and have fun again I have run for my last time riden a roller coaster boating tubing I cant stradle a motercycle any more I have always owned one until latly stuff like that gets in my head and like the other day some one told me smoking will kill you and I looked back and said I wish it would hury up then I am 36 and already live the life of an 80 year old and even like thease past few weeks when my back is flared up and I have to wipe away tears and take real pain meds again codeen messes with my short term memery so I even act like I'm 80 I hate it so much I like my mind its the only thing I feel I have to offer well thats enough ranting for now I think I might try to goto bed again and see if I can sleep you have a great day and injoy
Tommy