tomandhisjones

She doesn't realize how much she hurts me.
She calls me stupid and doesn't think it will hurt.
She asks me for a favour, and then calls me names.
Doesn't even give me money.
No, she just asks me for it.

I'm so depressed, and it's 6:15 in the morning.
I'm up with my mother.
And my septum ring is out...

I don't want to work today, it sucks.

What sucks more, I am going to have to work on Christmas. But, it's time and a half, and some other shit, so I get paid alot to work 4 hours. And besides, the hospital should be empty. So, okay, not that bad.

Um... I have to leave to go to work, but I have to go...
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I just got back from smoking a bowl, blunt and then a j. I fucking baked...


I am going to go be a . tehe... *giggles* I think I'm funny atleast.

Okay - Update:


1. I got my septum peirced last Friday. I love it, it is wonderful.
2. I bought and gave my brother his christmas present already. He is very happy.
3. JV is taking me away for the weekend, and I don't know where too, so people, help me out and find out where I'm going.
4. I ate 3 meals today.
5....
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Holidays can never go as planned.

It was all well and what not, until the sis came home, drunk, and started with me after dinner. Not so much started with, more talk down too. But "she's grown up and I'm a child." That's why, after I said she was a child she sat in my room for 15 minutes and cried. CRIED!?

Then, after I...
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Okay, work today... but it is Thanksgiving....


So... HAPPY TURKEY DAY PEOPLE, eat a bunch, and think of me working while you're having fun.

I have a new picture. It's me, when I was little and cute. And very odd. But, Clover, you are so odd, I love you. Kinda confused sometimes about ya, but damn, you're hott.

Cutnhalf I love you tons, and tons. Slightly more than my dogs. Who are also very odd. My dad moved the step ladder and now Pepper will not move from...
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Ummm...


I feel much better emotionally now.

Physically... I feel like shit...

Bed now, so tired...




p.s. Yay, new friends I'm so excited...












And I just can't hide it...

Too the people who have controlled me throughout my life -


lost in a world of doubt and insecurity
nothing that you hold sacred nothing that you believe
your life is a contradiction
while you thrive on manipulation
i fight to just hold onto what i believe
i won't become the thing i hate...
i won't become the thing i hate...
i won't become the...
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No caberet for me and the crew. I hate being broke ass. I hope everyone looked wonderful, and had a great time. *sigh* I'm glad I went to the last one.

Going to work soon, and that sucks.

Rae wanted me to write this - "I suck cock and love to toss the salad" (She's crazy, I swear to God.) Not really though she is...
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