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Saturday Aug 04, 2012

Aug 4, 2012
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random notes and rhymes that I've done in the past year... still feeling the pain.


It gets old. But, when I smile, I'm happy for you. It doesn't mean I'm happy, especially because I'm not worth being him. Live, love and be happy care for him, and know you're cared about. Understand,I'm going to fade. Not because I want to, but because I can't be fake, and I need to heal. My smiles mean I'm happy for you, but I'm not happy.

You said you'd always be there, but all I have left of you are stories of how he threw you down the stairs. I shouldn't care, but I cant help but sit, think and stare. After all, you're the one that left me. You let my body go, but when will you let my mind free. When will I see, The black, white and read all over this overpriced T.V. "Don't be me", It's what I tell her every day, even if she cant hear my inner children play a game so vial it lets the sorrow stay. We have to find away to let it go, to let our spirits grow. Don't let this get you down, I wont stop your sleeping with this town. It wouldn't be fair, After all I'm the one that clicked the button labled Share.


How can I get the us to we, when I can't even get you to notice me. I'm nothing but a name to you. Can't get you to see that my heart is true. So I spit these rhymes here and on facebook, hoping that you'll take a look. And seeing that my heart is true, you somehow know it's all for you. But back on earth it'll never happen, got a better chance of seein' the Kraken. So I'm gonna go back to work, feeling like a looser and a jerk. Then I'll go home and drink a beer, wishing these feelings would disappear. And once I drink enough to get over this, I'll hit the bathroom to puke a piss.

I won't tell a lie even if it means pulling out my wooden teeth or chopping down this family tree. Cant you see, even if I don't know how to use them, I'll build my future with the tools you gave me. I'll open up the cages, toss out my little notes in hopes that all the pigeons will always stay free.

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